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As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 16 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “slave” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.

Funishment vs Discipline:
Yesterday MD took me to lunch and then afterward we stopped at a store where She picked up a small journal for Her to use in tracking my demerits and spankings. MD sat me down last night and told me that i would be getting punished for the demerits i had received thus far. She explained i would receive 4 swats for each demerit i had accumulated (which was 13). Now i have received many spankings from MD since we have been married, but this was different. Previous to last night, the spankings were what I considered “funishment”. The spankings may still have hurt, but it was part of our play, it was more for her or my enjoyment. That was not the case last night, last night was discipline. i had to atone for my mistakes and transgressions. MD told me to go get Her various paddles and whips She owns and attach the hand straps to the hook in the ceiling. i did as i was instructed and got everything ready for Her. MD told me to pull down my shorts and panties and lock up one hand and then She locked up the other.
MD began by inserting a butt plug up me, telling me that She wanted to begin getting me ready for Mr. Sam and i would be wearing one often over the next couple of weeks. MD then went behind me and picked out Her first choice of paddles to begin to administer my spankings. Every once in a while She would stop and ask me how many, as it is my job to count. i would tell Her the count and then MD would either change paddles or whips and then begin again. After reaching number 52, MD stopped and told me to think about what just happened and then left the room. i stood there hands immobilized, my ass on fire and feeling totally ashamed for having put MD through this. After a little while, MD came back and unlocked me and gave me a hug and kiss. It was an amazing cathartic moment. i felt relief, clean and loved all at the same time. i thanked Her and She said that “the slate is clean and we start fresh”. i got down on my knees and kissed Her feet in gratitude.
Afterward, we sat outside on the bench and talked. We discussed how each of us felt and MD told me that She loved me more than ever but also what She expected from me. One of the demerits i had received was for looking at something online i shouldn’t have without Her permission (a blog of another submissive husband). MD told me that i was no longer able to do that unless i ask permission and She grants approval. The days of making those types of decisions for myself were over; She now is responsible for making the decisions for me and She takes that responsibility very seriously. MD explained that me being allowed online was a privilege that She could take away at any time. i told MD that i understood and was thankful for the privileges She gave me and i would do a better job at getting Her permission and following Her rules. i sit here this morning typing this blog with a sore ass and grateful heart.