June 12, 2014: One of the areas i struggle with in our WLM, is being submissive when i don’t necessarily feel submissive. Sometimes my level of submission is not as strong as other times. This is especially true when work has been stressful. Lately, i have been having some issues with one of my company’s vendors and having to have several meetings with them to try to get thing back on track. A few times i have had to get somewhat confrontational, since their lack of production has impacted other contracts.
So after spending long days with that mindset it is sometimes difficult to come home and just turn off the “alpha personality” and be the submissive i need to be for MD. But the reality is that this exactly what i must do to meet MD’s demands and expectations. My behavior cannot be conditional on how i feel, it is predicated on the commitment that i have made to MD and the lifestyle we have chosen together.
There are numerous things for which i need to improve; and i plan on writing about those in Part 3. The reality is to be the sh i need to be, i must focus on continual improvement. Hopefully, i can look back at these blogs in a year and see the kind of improvement MD requires.
Our Relationship: (Repeating on Each Blog)
As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 16 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “slave” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.