6/26/14: MD is emphasizing the point that i am no longer able to make my own decisions and i need to get Her permission before doing something, even the most mundane things. For example, if i want to leave Her presence to do anything i must ask MD’s permission and tell Her what i am about to do. In fact a little while ago i wanted to go get the clothes out of the dryer, so i got permission to do that and put those away and then needed MD’s permission to go put a new load back into the dryer.
Of course this also means getting permission to do things even as basic as asking to go to the bathroom (which She makes me request by asking “may i go potty please?” As if it wasn’t humiliating enough just to have to ask). i also must get MDs permission to go get anything to eat or drink, where i can go and even permission on what i can wear. i am not allowed to see Her naked (now having to wear blindfold when i lick Her) and can only go to blogs or websites She has approved.
We were talking about this last night and MD asked how i was feeling about Her taking away all my decisions from me. i told Her that the closest i could describe it was feeling like a small child where adults made most of the decisions for them. But even a small boy can often choose when to “go potty”. So it is a very powerless and humiliating feeling. Sometimes MD calls me Her “little pussy boy” and honestly that is the way i feel much of the time now. Someone who has been completely emasculated by a much more powerful person.
Whether this is part of Her training regimen to change the way i think or this is the way of life from now on i really don’t know. i do know i will work diligently to be the best sh i can for MD, even if it is embarrassing.
Our Relationship: (Repeating on Each Blog). As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 16 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “slave” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.