7/2/14: MD and i began reading a book entitled “The Cuckold Lifestyle; A Guide for Curious Couples” by Kitty Williams. i have found the book to be fascinating as it interviews both men and women who are actively involved in cuckolding relationships. The author takes it from the perspective of a Domme/sub relationship which is perfect for us. Last night MD and i were comparing notes from what we read. The major discussion point was for me was to see how much control the women had, in not only the cuckolding. but in the entire relationship as they progressed. Looking back on our cuckolding past, i was encouraging MD to play with others the past 10 years. We had noticed that lately i had not been leading us to pursue this as i had in the past. i originally thought it was me and that i had learned to back off, but after reading the book, i realized, that it wasn’t just me, but MD who was now driving this endeavor. i used the analogy with Her that for years i was pushing us uphill and now we were at the crest of this big hill and i was no longer pushing but hanging on as we starting a very fast descent. Now, don’t get me wrong, i am still thrilled that MD is playing, but it is now no longer about what i want, it is only Her desires that matters.
i asked MD last night, if six months ago i had suggested we don’t look for anyone and don’t play any longer, would she have agreed? MD said of course. i asked her, “what about now, if i asked you to not play with Mr. Joe any more, what would you say? She didn’t answer immediately but smiled at me as we both knew the answer. It wasn’t up to me any longer what MD does, it is only Her choices that matter. We went on to discuss our relationship and the power MD is continuing to exert over me. MD said that She knows where She is taking us and that we are far from there, but the reason is, that i am not ready. MD told me i still have a long way to go, but She is going to get us there but it may be by small baby steps because of me. Though in my head, I want to give Her that control, MD knows me and what is best.
When we went to bed last night MD demonstrated Her ability to control me. MD told me to lay on my back and pull up my gown. She slowly began to play with me till i was close to cuming. MD began to tell me how much i was under her control and that She owned me. She must have done this for about 10 minutes bringing me right to the edge and then stopping. i was frantic. i knew i wasn’t allowed to cum, but wanted too so badly. MD would bring me right to the brink over and over again and then stop. i was whimpering and to the point of tears when MD finally stopped. My dick was throbbing and i gasping for breath. MD pulled me close and held me like a baby while She comforted me. i went to sleep in Her arms. Yes, MD is completely beginning to own me; i am under Her power.
PS. MD has a lunch date with a woman today who is bi.
Our Relationship: (Repeating on Each Blog)
As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 16 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “slave” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.