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Fast Food: 7/23/14: MD and i have significantly changed our eating habits the past couple of years for health reasons and because of it i have lost over 40 lbs. We eat a lot of organic fresh fruit and vegetables with very little red meat (still need some occasional Texas Brisket!) When we do go out to eat we try to find places that provide healthy options. Last week we drove by a McDonalds and it got us to talking about how we have no desire to eat there any longer. The food is not healthy and not very good. We then tried to figure out if we had to stop at a fast food place, where would we stop and what could we order. The reality is there were not a lot of options. Now when you travel (especially in Texas) going through mostly small towns, options can be very limited, but we do our best to take snacks that tide us over until we get to a place that serves what we want to eat. Outside of the convenience factor, (or that is the only option), there is just no reason for us to eat at fast food locations.
i write the above, because it dawned on me today, that i have become a “McDonalds” for MD. A couple of months ago, i wrote a blog about MD wanting me to become Her “eunuch”; not physically but practically. In the past few weeks i am beginning to understand what i think She meant and after last night, it became even clearer.
MD told me Monday night, that She is implanting a new schedule for me, and going forward She is going to milk me every Tuesday night. i now have to go to bed ever Tuesday at 8:30 and spend 45 minutes using a vibrating butt plug. After 45 minutes, MD will come inspect and then allow me to get ready for bed. Though not very successful last night with the amount of fluid released, it did put me into a very sub state. When MD got to bed, i asked to be able to lick Her ass. MD said She wasn’t sure since She was sweaty from being outside, but if i begged hard enough, She might consider it. So i spent several minutes begging to be able to lick MD’s ass. Finally She agreed and turned over and i was able to lick Her ass and bring Her to an orgasm. When MD was through with me She saw that i was hard and scolded me. She then had me lay on my back and began to stroke me until i got right to the edge of cumming and then She would stop, just tantalizing me over and over again. While She was stroking me, MD said that once my “chastity time” was over, She still wasn’t sure that i was going to be allowed to cum inside Her. She told me that She was very seriously considering that any future sex for me would be with another guy. i would either cum in him and/or he would cum in me. MD also indicated that i really wasn’t that good of a lover since i am not very large nor, do i last very long and with all of the options She now has, i am not really needed.
Today it dawned on me – i am now MD’s McDonalds. Though not very good, nor really want you want to satisfy you, but as a last resort, you might stop there. MD now has plenty of “places to choose from” when She wants sex. In reality, She could have a different guy every night for a week that is currently texting with Her. With all those great choices to choose from, why should She now “settle” for less than great sex?
As for being MD’s eunuch, i realize i am quickly becoming that. My dick really doesn’t serve a function for MD except for Her to punish or torment it. If i now get hard, MD usually either spanks me or plays with me until I am ready to “pop” and then makes me turn over and go to sleep. Though not Her actual physical eunuch, i am now beginning to understand what She was trying to tell me a couple of months ago. Whether or not MD ever allows me inside Her or not, i do not know. She may be just saying that to put me deeper in sub space (which worked) or that the last time a couple of months ago, will actually be the last time i get to cum in Her. Whatever MD decides it is humiliating to know that if I am allowed inside Her instead of a “great meal”, She will being settling for “fast food”.
Our Relationship: (Repeating on Each Blog)
As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 16 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “slave” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.