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Day 82: 8/27/14: Now that MD has told me that we will only be having sex on our anniversary going forward, (or more accurately, i will only be having sex once a year), it has definitely changed by perspective of my chastity period. Chastity is no longer to be measured by days but by attitude. You can’t measure infinity with miles and you can’t measure forever with days, so there must be a new standard of measure. i went back and reread all my chastity posts and was amazed how my viewpoint has changed since June 8th. It has gone from a “summer of chastity” to a “life of chastity”. The first one you measure in days, but that would not be applicable to the second.
Overall, i think my attitude is pretty good about MD’s decision. There are still times i hope She reconsiders or tells me that She was “just joking”, but the reality is that is not the case. The idea of not ever having sex with MD is scary (and i don’t consider the anniversary sex an equivalent since She has already told me that She will just be laying there) but there are ways MD is helping compensate for “my loss”.
• The first thing is that MD is allowing me to lick Her several times a day. So far, it is averaging 2-3 times daily and one day it was 5 times. She now has me wake Her up by crawling between Her legs and licking Her until She cums. We normally finish the day with me licking Her pussy and ass. Some days She will just call me over while She is sitting in Her chair and tell me to start licking. There is something incredibly sexually fulfilling to be able to make MD cum that i can’t explain.
• The second thing, is that MD has started a regular “maintenance” session on the weekend. MD informed me that every weekend, She is going to tie me up and spank me and it started this past Sunday night. MD bound my hands above my hands and then pulled down my shorts and panties and i was given 40 swats, using a variety of paddles. This wasn’t the hardest MD has spanked me but it definitely had my attention. She explained that this is to help me stay focused during the week on serving Her. Knowing that each week from now on, i will be getting a spanking does keep one motivated to be on your best behavior. This is separate from a punishment spanking if i do something wrong. MD will continue to do that at the time of infraction or She may add it to the end of the maintenance session.
i think knowing that i agree with MD’s decision, even though i am not particularly thrilled with it, has my dealing with it much easier. Not to say, i have to agree with MD’s decisions to accept it, because that is not the case. i will always accept whatever decision She makes, but i think it has helped me process the reality of it much faster.
* Last time i came- June 6
* Day 2 – June 8
* Day 12 – June 18
* Day 22 – June 28
* Day 32 – July 8
* Day 42 – July 18
* Day 52 – July 28
* Day 62 – Aug 7
* Day 72 – Aug 17
* Day 82 – Aug 27
* Day 95 – Sept 9 (New Record)
Our Relationship: (Repeating on Each Blog)
As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 16 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “slave” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.