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Day 62: 8/7/14: Whenever you discover a new paradigm it takes a while to be able to reprocess all the things you used to “know” and i think that is the stage i am at right now. i am MD’s husband and best friend, but not Her lover, at least in the traditional sense of a typical husband. Do i miss having sex with Her, absolutely! Do I think this is the best thing for us right now, yes i do. So it is balancing what i want, to what is best. MD is like that delicious piece of chocolate cake when you are on a diet; because you can’t have it, it is hard not to keep from staring and lusting after it. i think that is the reason behind MD’s decision to put me in chastity, to get me “reprogrammed”. To quit lusting after Her sexually and focusing on what i need to do to please Her.

Sex has always provided so much of an emotional connection between us. i am sensing that the emotional connection is being transitioned for me in my level of submissiveness to MD. When i am in a deeply submissive attitude towards MD, it is almost equivalent to experiencing great sex, it is a very emotional. That was the case Tuesday night during my latest milking session. After MD released me, i was incredibly emotional and feeling very submissive to Her. It was as if we had had experienced a great sexual intimacy. Regarding my new life paradigm, and paraphrasing a line from the TV show, “The Big Bang Theory”, i feel like i am beginning to get it, i just wish i was getting there faster.

* Last time i came- June 6
* Day 2 – June 8
* Day 12 – June 18
* Day 22 – June 28
* Day 32 – July 8
* Day 42 – July 18
* Day 52 – July 28
* Day 62 – Aug 7
* Day 72 – Aug 17

Our Relationship: (Repeats on Each Blog)
As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 16 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “slave” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.