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Apprehensive: 9/30/14: Maybe better yet i should say, scared shitless! Our anniversary is coming up in October and MD has told me that is the one day a year She is going to allow me to cum inside Her. Though we have been lovers for more than 17 years and i am really nervous about being with Her. It has been over 4 months and She has had four other lovers since the last time i have been inside Her. She has told me that three of Her lovers have been very good (Her nice way of saying much better than me.)

You have to understand that MD is an incredible lover. Everyone She has been with has said the same thing (well at least the 11 i have met!). She has had over 40 lovers, including TV stars, famous musicians, and models. If MD was a horse, She would be a Kentucky thoroughbred; i am more like the nice gentle horses you see at the dude ranch, no bucking, just a nice gentle pace.

There was a movie in the 60’s starring Alan Alda called “Paper Lion”. It was about the true story of a sports writer who got to go to training camp with the Detroit Lions and the adventures of an average male competing against professionals. Suffice it to say, he didn’t fare well. In the bedroom, i am the average one, She is the professional. She will always outperform!

MD has told me that She is considering several options about our anniversary “date”. She has considered having another one of Her lovers to play with Her before and/or after me. She has thought about playing games on Her IPad, or texting with one of Her lovers while i am inside Her. She even told me that She may just use a big stop watch and count the number of seconds i last inside Her.

The apprehension of wondering what it going to be like and then knowing that once it is over, it will be another full year until i get to experience Her again, along with the realization of knowing my time inside Her will pass way too fast. i have less than 10 days and i am getting more nervous every day.

Our Relationship: (Repeating on Each Blog)

As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 16 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “slave” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.