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MD here, I will be posting mu subbies previous blogs and try to catch up, I have not posted in a long time. This is my sh’s blog from today:
05/31/15: In reviewing some of my previous posts, most have some very definitive themes. Here are some of the main themes of my blog:
Submission – This is the beginning of it all. i am inferior and submissive to MD; She must be obeyed and served at all times. There are several ways that MD demonstrates Her power over me. For one, MD is in total control of our finances. My paycheck is automatically deposited into Her account and all our accounts passwords have been changed. i must ask permission to go anywhere, and even basic functions such as going to the bathroom, must be approved by MD. Even at work, i must get approval to go get water or coffee. MD has me on an early bedtime and must sit when i pee. i am not allowed to use real plates to eat on, i serve Her food on glass plates, but then i must use paper plates. (MD just bought me pink plates to use.) MD’s control of my life is pervasive and growing.
Chastity – Another area that MD has taken complete control of is my sex life. She has decided that i will no longer be allowed to have sex with Her, (outside of one more time in October), nor now am i even allowed even to cum. Just recently MD decided that i will soon be placed in a permanent chastity cage to eliminate the ability for me to even get an erection. My only sexual outlet will be limited to wet dreams and servicing other men. As part of the ever growing control of my sex life, MD has not been allowing me to see Her naked or even allowed to touch Her.
Sissy – MD is teaching me how to be a sissy boy/girl. Though i have worn panties to work for a couple of years now, the requirement to be dressed in feminine clothes when i am at the house is very new. And this is not something that MD is allowing me to do, it is Her requirement now. That unless i am going to be in the front yard where people could see me, i must be wearing female clothing at the house. Yesterday that was wearing running shorts and a pink padded bra tank top. MD believes that the more i dress as in feminine clothes, the less i will feel like a man and it appears to be working. It is one thing to be a submissive man, but being made into sub sissy, is another depth of submissiveness. Knowing that She has the power to make me dress as a woman is a constant reminder of Her power and control over me. It is hard to look at a mirror and see the reflection of me in a dress, necklace, bracelet and a pink bow in my hair and think, “Yes, i am a man.” When i now look in the mirror, i say “Yes, i am a sissy.”
Cuckold – And since i am in chastity and a sissy on top of that, that means that i am a true cuckold. MD is not giving up sex, just giving up sex with me. She has Her lovers to meet Her sexual needs. Some husbands are both lovers and cuckolds; i use to be that way. Even though MD played with other guys, i too was able to have sex with Her. Now, my only role is to know my place as Her cuckold. It is exciting to have a “Hot Wife”, knowing that there are guys who have either had Her body or are trying to become one of Her lovers. There is nothing like the look MD gives me right before She goes off with one of Her lovers, or the glow She has when She gets back.
Additional themes to a lesser degree:
Humiliation – Humiliation is an incredibly powerful driver for me. When MD says “good boy” or at times “good girl”, it is humiliating, but i want continue to do good, so i receive Her praise again. When She reminds me how fast i use to cum or how much bigger, “J” is than me, it is humiliating, but gets me excited as well. When MD reminds me that She has total control over me and orders me to do something just to prove it, it drives me into an incredible desire to serve Her. i know that humiliation can be used to an extreme, but that isn’t the case with MD. It is Her way of reminding me that She is in control and i have a long way to go to be the sh She expects me to be.
Punishment – This is another incredibly powerful driver but in a different manner. Though MD is never cruel, She can definitely get Her point made on where and how She wants to see improvement. Some guys love the sub space that they get when they are spanked. That has only happened to me once or twice. i am not one who craves pain. i know it is necessary sometime to keep me focused, but i never try to deliberately do something that will make MD punish me. i figure that i will draw enough punishment on my own accord, i don’t need to add to it! There is something erotic though knowing She has the power to hurt me and there is nothing i can do to stop Her.
Tease & Denial – MD does like to flaunt Her incredible sexuality in front of me. She used to play with me or make me play with myself until right before i would cum and then stop and then make me turn over and go to sleep with my dick twitching wanting release. She doesn’t do that anymore, because She has no desire to see or get me hard. She now may just play with Her breasts or bend over in tight pants in front of me just to get me excited. i am sure when the chastity cage is placed on me She will even do this even more, watching as my dick tries to get hard but can’t because of the steel cage it is locked.
i often say that i write these blogs as a way of communicating with MD. i also write them to help me process the thoughts that i have in a more cohesive manner. When i write, i not only have to try to put things in perspective, but i also have to deal with how it makes me feel about the subject. It is also a journey that i want to capture. It is exciting to see where we started and where we have come in just over a year.
The reality of my life is written in my blogs. i don’t enhance anything, this is the real life adventures that MD and i share. Though far from traditional marriage, i am learning that there are many more like us than we used to think. There are other guys who want to be or are totally subjugated to their wives and there are wives like MD who have taken total control over their husbands, even to the point of taking on other lovers. All i have to say is “yea me!”
Our Relationship: (Repeating on Each Blog)
As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 16 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “slave” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.