Too Late. 6/5/15: MD has established a 9:00 bedtime for me during the weekdays. (Yes, i have the same bedtime as a child.) Last night it was about 8:45 and i started getting ready for bed. After brushing my teeth and getting a pink nightgown on, i climbed into bed and started reading on my iPad. A few minutes after 9:00 MD came to the bedroom and saw me still reading. She asked me what time my bedtime was and i meekly replied “9:00 ma’am”. i quickly turned off my iPad and turned over to face the wall to go to sleep. MD leaned over and told me to expect punishment tonight for not following Her instructions and staying up too late.

 First, i know what i did was wrong and i should have been more careful about watching the clock. Second, i now have to dread punishment all day instead of Her getting it over with last night. i am facing the dilemma of not wanting the spanking to come but wanting to get it over with as well. One bad thing about MD’s spankings is that She makes sure to “keep me in the moment”. MD requires that i count how many spanking i am receiving, not out loud, but in my head. She will then stop and ask me how many has it been. If i am unsure or not correct, She will start over. The other bad thing is that She will go at different speeds. She may give me several at a methodical pace and then four or five quickly. This way you can’t slip into “sub space” and let the dopamine take over the pain, i have to keep count of what She is administering to me.  

 MD gives me spankings in various ways. Sometimes She just has me bend over and put my hands on the bed, couch or dog kennel; lately She has had me tied up from a hook in the ceiling; but MD will also just have me over Her lap at times. Depending on where and how they are going to be given, i may have to go get things ready for Her. If i am to be tied up, i have to go get the chain and hand spreader bar set up. i also may have to get all of her paddles/whips out for Her choosing. A few times MD has made me put on my 5’ “fuck me” shoes when i am tied up, which pushes my ass out for easier aim. By wearing them it also keeps me from moving around too much, as well as tires my legs as an additional punishment, while standing there receiving the spankings.

 Before She begins, MD will usually tell me what the punishment is for (if it is for punishment, sometimes it is just for Her pleasure). Occasionally, MD will tell me how many spankings i will receive before She begins, but not usually. That is another thing that keeps me “present”, is not knowing how many i will be getting or when it will be over. It could be 20, 40 or more, and it is not always an even number, sometimes it is not over until my bottom is as blistered as She desires or until She is tired. And it isn’t just the count, it is the velocity and instrument of Her choosing. Depending on which ones She chooses (MD has 10 -15 different whips and paddles to choose from), 20 spankings from one of Her big paddles, can be far more painful than 50 of another one. MD will also often use multiple paddles or whips on me, so that too changes the dynamic and intensity of the spankings. After the spanking is over, MD may make me give a few minutes in timeout, if i need to get my composure back, and then i have to thank MD for the spanking. When it is over, MD usually hugs me and the punishment is done.

 i have no idea how “tough” She is going to be on me tonight. i do know i will be on my best behavior the rest of the day. The bad thing is i am working from home today so there are a lot of chances for me to screw up again. It is never “too late” for MD to add to my punishment.

 Our Relationship: (Repeating on Each Blog)

As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 16 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “slave” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.