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Chastity Life 6/12/15: A couple of days ago MD allowed me to cum. It had been almost two months since the last time i had cum. She took a almost empty water bottle and had me jack off into it. i then had to drink everything in the bottle. Though getting to cum was incredible, i have noticed that the last few days i have been “off my game”. i have been lazier and not near as attentive to MD as i was the two months before. The truth is i like being “horny” more than i like the feelings the next few days after cumming. Though the 15-20 seconds of release are incredible, the aftermath i don’t like.
i guess that is why i am beginning to look forward to enforced chastity, knowing that my state of perpetual desire for MD will be constant. The other reason is the physical aspect. Since MD doesn’t want me to get hard, i sometimes have to purposely stop conversations or thoughts of MD, because it is getting me aroused. With the chastity device, i won’t be faced with that issue.
Speaking of the chastity device, i believe MD has chosen the one She wants. i reviewed and suggested two models to Her that i thought would work well for long-term wear and She was going to choose the one She liked best. i don’t know when or if She ordered it and i don’t know which model She chose. It will be a surprise to me when it gets here. The reason She is ordering it early is that these are custom made and it takes 6-8 weeks to arrive. (The guy who does it is less than an hour drive from us.) Then you can have a try on period to see if you want any modifications and can ship it back to them for “resizing” before long-term application. MD is ordering the cage with the security screw, as She is not planning on taking it off except for travel and some doctor visits. She also bought a safe and with a key pad entry, and had me permanently mount it so She can keep the signed Contract, the POA over me and my security key, as well as any other “evidence”.
Though i recognize that MD is right and that i do better when i am not allowed to cum, i do hate the thought of never having sex with MD again. When i told Her that, She said She might consider letting me out on my 65th birthday to see if i can still do it after over 10 years of “captivity”. I think even more amazing than the thought of being locked up for so long, is the fact that MD loves the fact of me being locked up. i think She is really looking forward to putting the chastity cage on me and tightening the screw in October, knowing that my sexual days are over. She will then finally have Her sissy eunuch.
Our Relationship: (Repeating on Each Blog)
As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 16 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “slave” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.