6/26/15: MD was getting into bed the other night and so i turned my head as She took off Her robe, (MD sleeps nude and i am not allowed to look at Her body without Her permission), and got under the covers. i told MD that i would love to get to touch Her and She replied, “It is no longer your body to get to play with.” That statement pretty much sums up the state in which i now live. i am MD’s sissy sub husband, and Her body is reserved for men (and the occasional woman). It is strange to know that MD buys lingerie that i will probably never be allowed to see Her wear. She bought a new “personal” shaver to make sure She is nice and trim for Her lovers, but i am not allowed to see Her “handiwork” if you will. MD is my wife and though She loves me with all Her heart and would do anything in the world for me, She can easily deal with the fact that She believes that allowing me to have sex with Her is not good for our relationship and our WLM.  

 When you hear of sexless marriages, it is usually where one or the other partner loses interest in sex. In fact, MD had a first date with a guy this past week, who has been married for over 20 years and his wife decided a few years ago she was no longer interested in sex. They decided that he can play with other women, with certain rules and when he met with MD, he texted his wife saying where he was and who he was with. (BTW, the first date with “Ben” went well and he texted Her right away and asked to meet to play next week.) In our marriage that is not the case. MD loves sex and enjoys exploring new sexual adventures. i too love sex and am still very interested and “somewhat” capable. But sex between MD and i is now difficult in a WLM. How can we be “equals” in bed and then MD be my Superior in everyday life? MD has noticed that when we have sex or even when i just cum, i am less submissive and obedient for several days afterward. i have noticed that when i have sex, though i love it at the moment, i don’t enjoy the feelings i experience in the aftermath.

 Not only is MD’s body no longer mine to play with, right now it is off limits for me even to pleasure Her. MD has only allowed me to lick Her a couple of times this year. MD feels that i get “cocky” when She allows me to please Her orally. i think when MD says cocky She means i get a bit pleased with myself that i can get Her off and provide Her pleasure, and She doesn’t like that. Secondly, MD sees that i almost always get an erection while i lick Her and She doesn’t believe that sissy boys need to get hard. (MD even told me that if there was a pill i could take that would forever keep me from getting hard and there were no other side effects, that She would have me take it.) MD told me last night that when the new chastity cage comes in, She will again consider allowing me to please Her orally. i imagine She believes it is hard to be “cocky” in a pink nightgown, painted toenails and wearing a chastity cage.  

 Our Relationship: (Repeating on Each Blog)

As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 16 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “slave” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.