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7/12/15:Yesterday was incredible. It started out with MD and i getting up early and going to Denny’s for breakfast. i love starting out the day over breakfast, just talking and enjoying time together (MD even allowed me to order for myself yesterday!) After breakfast we ran to the store for a couple of items and then hit Starbucks before heading back home. When we got home, i was changing into some work clothes and so i decided to change from the “normal” bra i wore that morning to one of my “sports” bras. As i stood there in my panties and the bra it hit me that this is what i now wear. Whether i am out in public, at work or at home, i wear panties and a bra. This is not just something i do for fun or occasionally as a thrill, but this is my new normal and will be so for the rest of my life.
After finishing getting dressed i told MD my “wow moment”. She asked if i knew why She now requires me to wear a bra every day? MD explained that as a woman with large breasts, She is always aware when She has a bra on, whether it was the tight band or the compression She felt, but there is no “wondering” about it. MD told me that She wanted me to always be aware that i have one on too and therefore i am a sissy and i am Hers. She said, panties are becoming more unisex, but there is no mistaking when you wear a bra who and what you are.
We went on to discuss other elements of our WLM. MD asked if i had any regrets on the decision i made to be Hers. i told Her, though it is difficult to deal with the fact that after October, i will never be allowed to have sex with Her, or even get hard again and very probably not ever cum (at least how a guy normally cums) again, i absolutely had no regrets and i love being Her sh. i asked Her if She thought She would ever change Her mind about wanting to be in total control. i told Her that you read where a lot of wives may begin chastity or Domming their husbands, or even cuckolding them and then get “bored” with it and want go back to the way things used to be. MD said She never sees that as an option, that this is what She wanted and is loving getting to finally be “Her”. She loves being in charge of me, and in control of the money and responsible for all the decisions. i told Her that i noticed recently that She no longer says “our money”, when She talks about savings or budgets, She now refers to it as “Her money”. In regards to money or purchases, MD may ask me if i know of things we need around the house, especially my cleaning supplies, but often times, we will have packages delivered that i had no idea that She bought it.
MD has no need to get my thoughts or opinions on what She does. We have a house we have been leasing out while the market recovered. We learned recently that our tenants were moving out in a few months after living there almost three years. She contacted our property manager and got some ideas of what our house might now bring on the open market. Though MD asked me what my thoughts were on selling the house, She made the decision to list it and She will make the decision on whether any offers we get are acceptable. There is a good chance, that i might not even know when or how much the house sells for, except for needing to sign at the closing, (and since She has a POA, i may not even need to be at closing) since it really isn’t any of my business.
Last evening, after dinner, we got into the pool. i wore my pink bikini and MD wore only a men’s white shirt. MD knew that once She got in, that it was basically going to be see through and loved that i kept staring at Her. She finally laughed and unbuttoned the shirt so both of Her breasts just bobbed in the water. She noticed i was getting hard looking at Her, so MD pulled down my bikini bottoms and begin to stroke me to get me “fully engaged”. After i was hard, She climbed on top of me where my dick was right at the edge of Her pussy. She just bobbed up a down and grinded a bit on me for a while, but not letting me get inside Her, just teasing the hell out of me. She asked me how did it feel to know that Her body didn’t belong to me any longer, but that it was only for Her lovers? She leaned back against the edge of the pool so i was staring directly at pussy when i had to answer. i told Her it was incredible to see Her beautiful pussy and know how tight, and amazing it feels to be inside Her, and realize that it is no longer something i get to enjoy. She smiled and said “good”, and then told me that Her lovers felt the same way about Her body that i used to feel. Both “D” and “J” have commented on how tight and amazing She feels on several occasions. i reminded Her that there was a possibility She could have three or four different lovers this next week. She has “D” coming over Monday, and also supposed to meet two new guys, one on Tuesday and one Wednesday, and a guy She met on a “first date” a couple of weeks ago, has asked if he can see Her this coming weekend. She grinned and said, “I know”.
We finished the night in bed, Her nude and watching a cooking show and me in my pink gown, reviewing some of the guys who contacted Her yesterday off of one the internet sites. MD usually has me go through and edit out all the ones who contact Her that She would not be interested in, and then She reviews the remaining “possibles”. (i am also responsible for being Her “secretary”, keeping up with Her dates, at least the one She tells me about. MD has said, there may be times that “D” comes over while i am at work and She may not tell me, since again, it really isn’t any of my business any longer who or when She plays with someone.) i thought as i laid there, how lucky i am; that i have more than i could ever dreamed of and how far i have come in just over a year and a half. i can’t wait for the journey to continue as i submit to and follow MD’s leadership.
PS…MD said after my last blog, i was allowed to post one pic of Her.
As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 16 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “slave” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.