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8/12/15:After reading my blog of yesterday, MD attempted a half-hearted denial of being a “TD” expert. i reminded Her of the times when i was locked in my chastity cage and She would hold Her vibrator against it, just to drive me crazy. Or the time, we were going out, and She wore the key to my chastity cage as Her necklace. Then there was the time just a couple of weeks ago, where She was sitting across the table and pulled Her breasts out and as She held them said, “”D” sucked on these and came on them this afternoon” and with that, put them back in Her dress and went back to reading on Her iPad. After recounting just these off the top of my head, MD laughed and agreed that “maybe” She was a bit of a tease. (i didn’t even get to mention the times She would sit on my face and have me lick Her while She would play with me, then once She came, She would just stop and leave me hard and horny.) It is hard to describe the sexual frustration and longing that builds up inside without a release. When MD brings me right to the point of climax and then stops, it is like filling up a water balloon that has very tiny pinhole in it. You are filling it up and right before it “pops”, you tie it off and watch as it very, very, slowly starts to deflate. It is that continual rise and slow release with MD; and the more She does it, the “faster” the rise She gets out of me. i asked Her one time, to imagine when i am licking Her and right before when She usually grabs my head and pulls me in closer as She starts to cum, that i stop and back out. Her response was “Oh Hell No!” That is the difference between being a MD and a sh. She can’t imagine having that done to Her, but loves to be able do that to me.  

 The other part of the tease and denial process is that sometimes She does let me cum. So when She is playing with me, i know that there is this small, outside chance i will actually get to “finish”. This year, i believe MD has let me cum four times, the last time just a couple of weeks ago. Though MD normally doesn’t allow me to finish, on occasion She does because She “finds it amusing”. i am reminded that when i was in 6th grade, i had a girlfriend who had an older sister that we got to on a “double date”. It consisted of her and her boyfriend allowing us to ride with them to the movie. Coming back from the movie, my girlfriend and i started kissing, but we didn’t know until later that the older sister and boyfriend were giggling and laughing as they watched us in the rearview mirror, as they thought it was cute. i think that MD sees my cumming in that same amusing, cute manner. MD doesn’t see me as Her lover any longer, but more as Her “toy” to play with and enjoy. Watching me get so excited and not knowing if i am going to be allowed to cum and then finally getting to explode gives me an incredible orgasm and i imagine it is a good “cute” show.  

 The other reason MD allows me to cum occasionally is that She likes me to have to sleep in “sticky panties”. She will have me play with myself and right before i cum, i have to pull my panties up and finish with my dick inside my panties so i capture all my cum in them. She then makes me turn over and go to sleep. i usually go to sleep almost immediately, but often will wake up an hour or two later and my panties are now cold and wet and i lay there trying to find a comfortable way to go back to sleep.

 i call what MD does to me “sweet torture”. The ongoing TD drives me crazy with lust, but i can’t help but love what She does to me. To look into Her eyes as She smiles at the lust that She knows She is causing in me is amazing. On the weekends, She will start in the morning and just let it build all day. She may pull up Her dress on the side to show me She is not wearing panties. She will walk up to me and kiss me aggressively and as my knees start to buckle, She will stop and walk away. She will walk up behind me and pull Her top up and press Her breasts up against my back and say something like “wouldn’t you love to be allowed to turn around and be able to play with these?” These are just a few examples She has done in the past couple of weeks just to tease me. That is why i call it sweet torture, it hurts so good!

 Our Relationship: (Repeating on Each Blog)

As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 16 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “slave” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.