9/07/15:Occasionally, after i email my blog to MD, i will wait for Her to read it and then we will talk about what i wrote. Sometimes She may simply say She likes it or maybe there was something She hadn’t thought of from my perspective and we will discuss. Yesterday, while MD was reading my blog, i saw Her facial expression turned a bit quizzical (of all the great abilities of MD, having a “poker face” is not one of state them.) MD told me that She disagreed with something i wrote in my blog. In my mind i immediately began to rerun my blog to see what i thought it was. While She finished reading, my first thought was that maybe She didn’t agree to my statement that “She doesn’t see me as a man any longer.” When She finished, i asked Her if that was the sentence She was questioning, and MD said, “No, that’s true”. The sentence MD said that She had problem the first time She read it was, “Though i am an “alpha male” at work, MD still wants to control me.” She said “wants” is not strong enough, that “must” or “requires to” control me is closer to the truth. MD sees me as something She owns, and has full authority over its use. Speaking of owning, MD took me to a “Drag Show” last night. MD wore a dress that was a “Wow” and i wore my new woman’s slacks, a woman’s golf shirt, panties, bra, woman’s flats and knee highs. Though it was all woman’s clothing, nobody seemed to notice. The shirt has a bit thinner fabric than a man’s shirt, so i am sure that if people were looking they could see the outline of my bra straps in the back. Overall the show was OK, but one of the guys was really good. i am sitting there watching the performance and the thought that ran through my mind, was, “i wish they could teach me how to put on makeup”. See how far i have come in a year!
Today being a holiday, we don’t have work, so family is coming over. Though we love to see them come over, we also love to see the leave. It is hard to have to stop being MD and sh when they are around and be parents and grandparents (Yes, my Masteress is a grandmother!) i have to really work on not calling MD “Masteress” and She has to think about not ordering me to do things as She would normally.
MD told me that She has three dates tentatively planned this week, and another couple of guys She is considering setting up with first dates. The guy who is bi and wants to play with both of us, asked if we could meet him next weekend, so that is a slight possibility as well. The interesting thing is that i have no say in any of it. If She wants to meet a guy, then She will, and if MD wants to see me with another guy, i will have no options. That is the nice thing about being owned, it cuts out a lot of the decision process. It is simply, “Yes, Masteress”.
Our Relationship: (Repeating on Each Blog)
As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 16 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “slave” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.