9/04/15:If you have ever traveled, you know that no matter how much you read about or seen pictures, some destinations can’t be fully appreciated until you have seen them in person. Whether it is New York City, London, Paris, the Colorado Rocky Mountains, or the California Redwoods; all of them have to be experienced in person to fully appreciate their uniqueness, beauty and splendor. i am learning the same is true for a WLM relationship. No matter if MD tells me something, and even if i know it to be true in my head, sometimes until you experience it you really can’t understand it. This type of experience happened to me this past week. In my last blog, i wrote that “M” came over on Tuesday, before he went to work and played with MD, after i left that morning. i said, i didn’t know if She would tell me anything about it. Well it turns out, MD didn’t say anything further about him coming over. She texted me when he arrived and when he left, but that was it. It dawned on me, that though i had written previously that MD’s sex life was no longer was my business, it was actually very true.When MD started cuckolding me many years ago, i was heavily involved. i was either participating in some way, watching, or at least engaged in some manner. Unfortunately, i was too engaged as i was often the principal driver. This was a frustration for MD and one of the main reasons we stopped playing for several years. This time, MD said it would be all about Her and Her desires. The first time we started back up, i was in the room when She played with “Joe”, but that was the last time i have been present in the room when She has played with anyone. When She first started playing with “J”, i was at the house but not in the same room. Since then, i have only been at the house once, when She was playing with someone, and that was when “Rob” came over. i haven’t even met all the guys She has played with this time. As i have looked back on it, i have realized that MD has slowly “weaned” me from Her playing. Over the past year, MD has said less and less about what has gone on behind “closed doors”, and Tuesday finally said nothing at all.

When the realization that MD now doesn’t feel it is necessary to say anything at all when She plays with another guy, and on top of that, as of next month i will truly be MD’s “former lover”, emotionally it took me a bit by surprise. It took me a couple of days to process this and then i realized that even though She had told me this previously, it took me experiencing it first hand to understand the depth to what She has been saying. This entire WLM journey, MD has been way out in front of me. When you go exploring, usually someone takes the lead and the others follow. MD has been the lead and She has been far enough ahead, that when She tells me what is coming, i may not see it for a while, but then i eventually come to it. (Sometimes She doesn’t even tell me what is coming but lets me discover on my own.) When i am finally there though, MD is now further along the path seeing what is up ahead. (Now if you are going to choose to follow someone, may i recommend MD, She has the best ass in the world to follow, as many guys at our grocery and vitamin store can attest!)

Though it took me a couple of days to process, the natural progression now makes sense. Our intimacy is no longer is derived from sex, it comes from an emotional connection as MD/sh. If MD tried to share the intimacy and pleasure that She receives from other guys with me, it wouldn’t work. Once i can fully realize that sexual intimacy is no longer something MD is going to share with me, (outside of being used as Her toy to please Her on occasion), then the easier it will be to discover my true role as MD’s sh. i can honestly say though, that the intimacy with MD is stronger now than it has ever been before in our 17 years of marriage, and it actually began to flourish when MD took total control and began removing sex between us. Though this seems like the opposite of what should occur, it really was the obstacle that was keeping us from going to the next level. Whether in the future MD chooses to share details of Her sex life on occasion, is up to Her. Though it is humiliating to know that has her husband, i may have a very limited knowledge of who and what She is experiencing sexually; i have now experienced the fullness of the realization that it is no longer any of Her sissy sub hubby’s business.

Our Relationship: (Repeating on Each Blog)

As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 16 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “slave” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.  

9/01/15:It seems to me that MD’s attitude changes a bit right before She sees one of Her lovers. When She is about to see “D”, MD is very relaxed. It is a very easygoing situation, where he will run over about noon, once every other week or so, stays about 30-45 minutes and then he is gone. There is no drama and they don’t even talk or text that much during the week. With “J”, MD seems to get a little more “slutty”. They will talk or text a bit dirty on the phone beforehand and when he is about to take Her to bed, She gets a big grin on Her face, becomes pretty flirty and is excited because She says he is very good (and big) in bed. But with “M”, i find She seems to get a more Domme attitude toward me. (“R” is too early to tell how that would be, but believe it would fall somewhere between “D” and “M”.)

“M” came over this morning. Now, MD told me he last week that he was, but this wasn’t one of the mid-morning meetings, “M” was going to come over at 6:15 a.m., as he was stopping by on his way into work. MD told me i would have to go into work early today, so that i would be gone by the time he arrived. Anytime one of Her guys comes over, it is my job to get our place “company ready”, including the bedroom. “J” likes the air conditioner set a certain way and needs a magnum condom available. “D” wants a hand towel, a condom and his vibrating cock ring beside the bed. “M” bought his own box of condoms the first time he came over and left them here, so i need to have one of his brand available for him. Last night before bed, i reached into the nightstand beside the bed and got one of “M”‘s condoms out and shut the drawer, MD looked at me with a bit of a wicked grin and said, “Go ahead and get two out”. When we got ready to climb into bed, right before MD turned over said, “How does it feel knowing you have to get out of bed early in the morning so my lover can climb in it?”  

This morning i got up early and got dressed and ready for work. MD gave me a kiss and told me that She would talk to me later and i left for work. i just got to the office and signed in when i get a text from MD, with the message “company here”. The next time i hear from Her is almost an hour and a half later with another text, “company gone, going back to bed.” Nothing else was said about it the rest of the day. Even when i got home, MD gave me a hug and kiss and said She was on the phone with IT for a security issue with Her computer and i was to go let the dogs out.

i am writing this blog while She finishes up a phone call about work. We will talk after Her call, but She may not say anything about Her meeting with “M”. Her philosophy now is that Her sex life (outside of health and safety), is not really any of my business. She may say something later this evening, maybe in a couple of days or never bring it up. As long as She is enjoying Herself, that is all that matters. i love my Hotwife!

Our Relationship: (Repeating on Each Blog)

As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 16 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “slave” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.  

Note from MD: I post on a couple of sites and from time to time I get a message or comment stating we can not be real or we are making our life up. My sh wanted to respond 😉

8/26/15:Yes, we are a real WLM couple. Those are MD’s real boobs in the picture below, (OMG and they are amazing!). MD is really a Domme and i am really Her submissive sissy. And yes, MD has several other lovers. i realize that some people who read this blog think this is a fantasy or my made up stories. i can assure you what you read really happened. It doesn’t bother me that people think i am writing fiction, because if i stumbled across this blog, i would be skeptical as well. Actually, i find it to be a complement that i am getting to live a life that many people believe doesn’t exist. i promise, if i was making this up, the last three dates that MD had planned with Her lover “M” this past week, wouldn’t all have been cancelled due to issues with his work.  MD says that some of you occasionally send in comments or questions. i would ask that you keep them civil and clean as MD is the one who reads these. i am not allowed to see the postings or comments, and i don’t even have the link to where She posts this blog. i am not even sure which blogs She posts and which one She doesn’t. This is about me writing down what i am experiencing and feeling and then trying to share them. MD has learned that i don’t always communicate what i am feeling very well in a verbal manner, but can do so better in writing sometimes, so that is why She requires me to blog. It is also a historical track of where we began our WLM journey.  

i suggested to MD that since some readers don’t believe She/we are real, maybe we could have an auction one day and that the winner would get to meet or at least skype with Her. The money would go to Her favorite charity, a homeless shelter for teens. i wonder how much someone would be willing to pay just to meet MD? Just so you know, MD and i began our dating back in the old AOL days, messaging and emailing each other. When we both started talking, neither of us had any idea of the Domme/sub interests of the other. All i knew was She was an incredible lady and i had to meet Her. i flew across halfway across the country to meet Her and it was the best decision i ever made.   

Our Relationship: (Repeating on Each Blog)

As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 16 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “slave” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.