10/18/15:My last time for sex with MD was supposed to be last Sunday the 11th, but it didn’t go according to plan. We got to the hotel early that afternoon and we were going to do some running around, come back the hotel and change and then go to dinner. When we got back from dinner we were to “celebrate” my last time with MD. Since MD wanted me to last a while, She told me before we went out to go jack off in the bathroom. Since it had been a while since She had let me cum, the chance to have two orgasms in the same night sounded incredible. Unfortunately, after obeying MD and cuming that afternoon, my “performance” was very not good later that night. Thankfully, MD said i could have one more try over the next week. 

On Friday, i asked Her if we could try again after we went out that night. MD agreed and we went to a club where we had a few drinks and danced. Once we got back, we were tired and it was late so we postponed until Saturday. Saturday morning i woke up and wanted to play with MD. She was still sleeping so i waited until She started stirring and asked if we could play that morning. MD was a bit reluctant at first but then She got up from bed and put on a very sexy nightie and climbed back in bed with me. She first allowed me to play with and suck Her breasts which is always exciting. i was then allowed to lick Her to an orgasm. Instead of climbing inside Her right then, i reached into Her drawer and got Her favorite vibrator and asked if i could watch Her cum again. MD smiled and said yes. i kneeled between Her legs and put my finger inside MD while She began using the vibrator. It was amazing just to watch Her face as She drew deeper and deeper into the moment. In a couple of minutes, i watched MD have a very powerful orgasm and that is all i needed to want to finish up.

i climbed in between MD’s legs and slowly slipped inside Her. It was incredible! i slowly moved in and out of Her, but between my normal “quick release” and watching MD’s erotic orgasm, my tension quickly built. i knew i wasn’t going to last much longer, so i got off MD and turned over on my back. MD climbed on top of me and began to slip me inside Her. i asked MD if this was the last time i was going to be insider Her p*ssy and She said, “Well for at least 10 year and it may well be the last time you are even hard again.” When She said that i had one of the most intense orgasms of my life. It was an incredible mind fuck to hear Her say that while She smiled down at me Her tight p*ssy clinching my dick. After i finally calmed down a bit, MD had me slip down further in the bed and She climbed on my face and i licked my cum out of Her p*ssy for the last time.

The rest of the day was almost a euphoric high. All the emotions i felt leading up to and then immediately preceding having sex with MD was the exact opposite i thought i would have if we had discussed this 2 years ago. Instead of being depressed, there is almost a relief. Once you come to the end of the road in one direction, it is exciting to start a new journey in another direction. i don’t need sex with MD to enjoy an incredible amount of intimacy between us. Though She is an incredible lover, She is even a better MD. i love being able to submit to Her and become what She desires. Having sex with Her inhibits that growth and to give that up means i am going to experience Her in even a deeper way.  

i know there will be times i will still desire release and i am sure MD will continue to torture me with teasing and denying me. The desire for Her will never go away, but knowing that is no longer an option, is in some ways very freeing. The reason i wanted MD to use Her vibrator before i got inside Her was that i wanted to watch one more time, Her experiencing great sexual release. She now is the only one of us who will continue to enjoy that experience. My time for enjoying that is over. i am now simply Her sh, the one to supply Her with fresh batteries, get the house prepared for Her lovers, and when allowed be available to use my fingers or tongue as a sexual aide to Her. Though the days of being MD’s lover are now over, getting to be MD’s eunuch have just started. One journey ends, and another one begins. 

Our Relationship: (Repeating on Each Blog)

As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 17 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “sexless” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.