They say be careful what you wish for, because you might just get it. In my case i got more than i ever even imagined much less wished. i am writing this blog at a washateria while MD is getting Her nails done in another part of town. We had several loads of sheets and towels that needed bleached and MD doesn’t like the smell of bleach, so She dropped me off to wash and dry the laundry while She runs Her errands. i will just have to wait here until She gets through and comes picks me up.It is amazing to see how far we have come since we started along the path of a WLM. MD no longer feels it is necessary to ask me to do things, it is now very simply an order. When She woke up this morning, She told me to get out of bed and make Her a cup of coffee. Several times today, She has told me to do things and She feels very comfortable making me serve and obey Her. Where at first, She felt a little embarrassed about me doing all the work or waiting on Her, She now feels very comfortable having me serve Her however She wants or chooses.
Less than two years ago, i was having regular and incredible sex with MD and now i am permanently locked in a chastity cage and last month having experienced the last time i will get to have sex with MD for at least 10 years. MD told me that She loves having me locked up and knowing that not only that i can’t cum anymore, but i can’t even get hard like Her lovers can. She told me yesterday that She loves the power and thrill of being able to lock me up and being in total control of my dick. It is thrilling to know that She has the power to tease me to frustration and there is nothing i can do about it. In addition, MD now has regulated me to licking Her ass as my way of trying to please Her sexually. She told me that Her p*ssy is off limits to me except on special occasions and that She has lovers and vibrators that She uses on Her p*ssy. MD doesn’t even allow me to see Her naked any longer, saying that is for men to enjoy. (And the occasional woman!)
Two years ago, i wore panties on occasion, but now that is all i am allowed to wear, plus a bra and when at home it is dresses, skirts, tops and tights. MD has me wear lipstick, bows and falsies, anything to make me more sissy and femme. She says She sees me as a femme sissy and that is the way She wants me to dress. (MD ordered me a new maid’s outfit.) She says that is the new me and i am expected to dress and act in that manner.
MD told me yesterday that Her worry is that in a year or so that i will come to Her and tell Her that this is only been something i have been doing to please Her and that i will want to go back to “normal”. i said, that my biggest fear is that MD will change Her mind about having total control one day and say that She was doing this only for me and that She will want to go back to the way things used to be. i found it fascinating that we both had the same worry, that the other might change their mind, because we each knew this is what we truly desire.
i absolutely love having MD being in total control. A couple of weeks ago i received a promotion and raise at work. When my first new paycheck came in, MD told me to copy it and the previous month’s paychecks and email them to Her so She could compare them and update Her budget. i didn’t even bother to look at my paycheck since all the money is deposited in Her account anyway, so it really didn’t seem to be any of my business. MD is in total control of all our finances and other than my $20/week allowance, i have no idea how much money we have or where our money goes.
My very first thoughts of being a submissive was when i was around 8 years old and that i was taken and kept by an older and more powerful female as her slave. Now almost 50 years later that is almost exactly how my life has played out. MD is definitely more powerful than me and She keeps me as Her sissy, cuckold and chastity sh. Why in the world would i ever want to go back to our old normal? i am getting to be more than ever dreamed!
Our Relationship: (Repeating on Each Blog)
As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 17 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “sexless” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.