11/15/2015

They say be careful what you wish for, because you might just get it. In my case i got more than i ever even imagined much less wished. i am writing this blog at a washateria while MD is getting Her nails done in another part of town. We had several loads of sheets and towels that needed bleached and MD doesn’t like the smell of bleach, so She dropped me off to wash and dry the laundry while She runs Her errands. i will just have to wait here until She gets through and comes picks me up.It is amazing to see how far we have come since we started along the path of a WLM. MD no longer feels it is necessary to ask me to do things, it is now very simply an order. When She woke up this morning, She told me to get out of bed and make Her a cup of coffee. Several times today, She has told me to do things and She feels very comfortable making me serve and obey Her. Where at first, She felt a little embarrassed about me doing all the work or waiting on Her, She now feels very comfortable having me serve Her however She wants or chooses.  

Less than two years ago, i was having regular and incredible sex with MD and now i am permanently locked in a chastity cage and last month having experienced the last time i will get to have sex with MD for at least 10 years. MD told me that She loves having me locked up and knowing that not only that i can’t cum anymore, but i can’t even get hard like Her lovers can. She told me yesterday that She loves the power and thrill of being able to lock me up and being in total control of my dick. It is thrilling to know that She has the power to tease me to frustration and there is nothing i can do about it. In addition, MD now has regulated me to licking Her ass as my way of trying to please Her sexually. She told me that Her p*ssy is off limits to me except on special occasions and that She has lovers and vibrators that She uses on Her p*ssy. MD doesn’t even allow me to see Her naked any longer, saying that is for men to enjoy. (And the occasional woman!)

Two years ago, i wore panties on occasion, but now that is all i am allowed to wear, plus a bra and when at home it is dresses, skirts, tops and tights. MD has me wear lipstick, bows and falsies, anything to make me more sissy and femme. She says She sees me as a femme sissy and that is the way She wants me to dress. (MD ordered me a new maid’s outfit.) She says that is the new me and i am expected to dress and act in that manner.

MD told me yesterday that Her worry is that in a year or so that i will come to Her and tell Her that this is only been something i have been doing to please Her and that i will want to go back to “normal”. i said, that my biggest fear is that MD will change Her mind about having total control one day and say that She was doing this only for me and that She will want to go back to the way things used to be. i found it fascinating that we both had the same worry, that the other might change their mind, because we each knew this is what we truly desire.

i absolutely love having MD being in total control. A couple of weeks ago i received a promotion and raise at work. When my first new paycheck came in, MD told me to copy it and the previous month’s paychecks and email them to Her so She could compare them and update Her budget. i didn’t even bother to look at my paycheck since all the money is deposited in Her account anyway, so it really didn’t seem to be any of my business. MD is in total control of all our finances and other than my $20/week allowance, i have no idea how much money we have or where our money goes.  

My very first thoughts of being a submissive was when i was around 8 years old and that i was taken and kept by an older and more powerful female as her slave. Now almost 50 years later that is almost exactly how my life has played out. MD is definitely more powerful than me and She keeps me as Her sissy, cuckold and chastity sh. Why in the world would i ever want to go back to our old normal? i am getting to be more than ever dreamed! 

Our Relationship: (Repeating on Each Blog)

As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 17 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “sexless” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”. 

11/01/15: This past Wednesday, MD received a package. When She saw who it was from, She became excited and told me to help Her open the package. She pulled out a red velvet container and opened it up to find a Queen’s Keep chastity cage from Mature Metal that She ordered a few months ago (maturemetal.com). It had taken a little longer than She had expected, as they had had a backlog of orders and mine was one of those that was “back ordered”. MD told me to put on the cage and lock it. (MD ordered it with a security key so it wasn’t a regular lock.) 
i put on the cage and tightened the security screw and it was complete; i was now locked up. MD and i have used different chastity cages for several years. We started with the CB2000 and have used various versions since then. One of the major difference between the previous cages and this one is the customization. The others were “off the shelf” devices, where this one is “custom made”. i put it on and immediately felt the difference in the fit and quality of the device. It was light and comfortable, but also was very restrictive on my “excitement level”. This was the difference between “amateur” and “professional” grade.   

Not only was there a difference between the types of devices we have used in the past, but the major difference was the expectation. Previously MD had used the 3 month mark as the barometer of my usual lock in period. i had been kept between 90-95 days on three different occasions before She unlocked me and i was allowed release. MD has different expectations now. It is no longer a time period where i will be locked up before my next release. Now, i will only be released if absolutely necessary. MD has told me that She has no desire to ever release me. i will be allowed only to be release for certain doctor visits and when i travel on an airplanes. Her expectation is that i will always be forever locked up and if unlocked, it will be for a short, definite reason.  

MD used to lock me up to create a sexual tension; i am now locked up because She doesn’t believe i need to cum or be hard; and that is a major distinction. i use to know that when i was locked up, there was going to be a “release” point where MD would allow me to cum. i now know, that i am in a permeant chastity state and MD had no desire or interest in letting me have a release. It is amazing to know that MD is good without me every getting to cum or get hard again. She loves having me as Her “eunuch” and as such my sexual desires are of no interest of Hers. Though She may play with me to get me excited for Her amusement, the idea of allowing me to enjoy that release, is of no interest to Her. i am now Her sexless eunuch and that is what She has told me that She has desired for the past year. 

Though the Queen’s Keep is incredibly comfortable for long term wear, i have to admit, it is incredibly frustrating to wake up in the middle of the night, trying to get erect and finding out that is now no longer possible. i now no longer have any sexual freedoms, i am just a little sexual slave to my MD. Where i used to have at least the freedom to get an erection thinking about being with MD that is no longer the case. i am just Her little sissy sub, who can’t get an erection and as far as She is concerned that will be true for the rest of my life.   

Our Relationship: (Repeating on Each Blog)

As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 17 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “sexless” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.