2/20/2016:
i had a setback in wearing my chastity cage this past week. i got a large abrasion underneath my penis due to the cage and we had to remove it. We are contacting Mature Metal to see if it has to be returned for sizing or if there is something else we can do. i will have to be out of it for at least another week to heal even if we don’t have to send it off. The first couple of days of “freedom” seem to go fine, but that next morning i woke up to “morning wood”. i was really disappointed as it had been almost 4 months since the last time i had been hard. MD has told me that Her sissy femme boy shouldn’t ever need to get hard again, since i will never allowed to enter Her or ever get to cum again. So She finds the thought of me with an erection as being disrespectful of Her commands.
What i found interesting is that my reaction to getting hard was to want to dress femme. Since we were traveling last week, that wasn’t a real option, but after getting home late Friday night, yesterday i got to dress. Now i always wear panties and most of the time a bra, but yesterday i was able to only wear femme clothing. MD had run into town and left me doing some work around the house. When She got back i was completely dressed wearing lipstick (a new kind MD had just given me) along with a pink bow in my hair. When She got out of the car, MD had a little smirk on Her face seeing Her 6’0/200 lb hubby all dressed as a sissy. She loves making me dress this way, and now i am desiring even more.
There is something very humiliating standing in front of MD in a dress or skirt, it reminds me how powerless i am and how much MD is in control. MD allows me a lot of liberty in how i dress depending on how “exposed” i am going to be that day, but the basic goal is to dress as femme as possible. We have to run some errands today, so i will only get to wear a bra and panties under my boy clothes. When i get home though it will be a pink dress and my girly shoes for me.
Our Relationship: (Repeating on Each Blog)
As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 17 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “sexless” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.