06/04/2016:

A few months ago i wrote a blog about needing almost the smallest cage that MM makes and that my dick seems to be “shrinking”. Well a couple of weeks ago, i was telling MD about an article i read about a guy who was locked in a chastity cage for 6 months and when he was allowed out and got hard, he was smaller than he used to be. We were in the hot tub when i was telling Her this and She said for me to go get my key, as She wanted to see if that was happening to me as well. i got the key and MD told me to unlock myself and make myself hard. Let’s just say the results were not positive. When i finally got “hard”, my erection was noticeably smaller (about 1.5 inches smaller) and i was definitely not “standing proud”. i was very embarrassed, but MD thought it was hilarious. i guess i am only about 4.5 inches now and when you compare that to MD’s former lover “J” who was about 11 inches, you can see the discrepancy.  

MD was so amused She told me to go ahead and see if i could still cum. i thought since i hadn’t cum in over 7 months that my orgasm would be incredible, but no, that wasn’t the case. i had two small squirts and it was over. It wasn’t even a great feeling, almost anti-climatic. Here i am in the hot tub, very embarrassed with my small, almost useless dick in my hand while MD seems very pleased. She said She wanted a sexless husband and She is getting Her wish.   

MD told me that She may put in next year’s contract that i will be allowed to get hard once a year, just so She can monitor my “shrinkage”. But She also said She wouldn’t allow me to cum again. She noticed my submissive attitude was less after i came (even if it wasn’t much) and so MD said She wouldn’t make that mistake again.

MD told me today that after my chores were done, and if we had time to take a nap, that She might allow me to listen to Her cum. My Wife, who can have sex whenever She wants, with whomever She chooses, is the sexiest woman i have ever met. i have told Her that i wish we had started our WLM a long time ago, but the only reason i am glad we waited was all the great sex i had with Her before we started and i love those memories. She asked me this morning if i get depressed or overwhelmed knowing i won’t ever be allowed to have sex again. i told Her that i don’t. i know my role and that is not to be Her lover any longer. A few more months in chastity, and i can’t even imagine trying to have sex with MD. Not only would it be incredibly humiliating, but it would probably be almost impossible. MD’s “sh” = sexless hubby.

06/04/2016:

i am writing this blog in a dress, bra, panties and wearing lipstick, the things i wore to bed last night. Normally, i wear one of several different pink nightgowns to bed, but i was feeling very submissive last night and put this on and just wore it to bed. The reason i was feeling so submissive was due to taking MD to our swinger’s club on Thursday night. 

We both took Friday off to get a project done, so we decided we would go to the swinger’s club on Thursday night, and spend the night at a hotel nearby. At the club we were having a good time, listening to the music and me enjoying watching MD dance with several other ladies. After She came back from the dance floor, a couple who was sitting close to us began to talk to Her. She moved over closer to them and though i couldn’t hear what She was saying, i could hear Her laugh and She was playing with Her beautiful red hair, which is a dead giveaway She is interested. MD began kissing them both and it appeared that they were both sucking on MD’s breasts. (Somehow they magically appeared out of Her dress!) After several minutes of playing together, they all three got up and MD told me that She would be back later.  

This left me sitting by myself in the main part of the club while everyone else was dancing and talking. About 30-40 people saw that She went off with another couple and i felt they knew that i was being cuckolded. MD has told me before that if She goes off with someone else that i am just to wait in the main room and not follow Her. So i was bit surprised to see MD come out of the back area about ten minutes later and signaled for me. i followed Her to the back room, which is called the “play room”. It has a very large round bed with chairs all around the room. The club rule is that you can only get on the bed if you are going to play; if not, you are allowed to sit in one of the chairs and watch. When we got to the room, MD pointed to one of the chairs and said “sit”.  

 In the play room was the other couple, she was topless and he was naked except for one sock (not sure why) and had a well pronounced erection. MD quickly joined them on the bed and proceeded to play with them both. While they were playing, several couples came in and watched. Over the 30 or so minutes MD was playing, i would say 13-17 people came in and observed. (The reason for the odd number was one of the workers at the club kept coming to the door and watching.)   

After a while, the other women climbed off the bed and begin putting her clothes back on. While she was doing so, she kept saying, “oh wow”, “that was incredible”, “amazing”, etc. She wasn’t saying it to anyone else, she was just muttering to herself. While she was doing this, MD and the guy were still going strong, and they played for several more minutes. Finally they finished and MD got off the bed, and grinning, came over and took me by the hand and we went back to the main room. We had another drink and then went back to the hotel.

There is something very surreal in watching your Wife play with other people. Though i don’t get jealous when She plays, it does make me feel incredibly submissive, knowing that She has that right. We don’t have an “open marriage”, we have a “cuckold, chastity marriage”. She can play with whomever She wants and i don’t play at all. When we got back to the room, i noticed my panties were full of precum. (All day Friday, i was still leaking from being so excited.) We got into bed and She cuddled in behind me and went fast asleep. i laid there replaying the evening in my head, until too falling asleep.  

All day yesterday, i felt very submissive to MD and when we got home last night, i wanted to put a dress on. Wearing a dress will either make me feel submissive (as when MD tells me to put one on) or i wear one when feeling especially submissive. There is nothing masculine about wearing a bra/dress/lipstick. They say that women choose what clothes to wear that reflects how they feel. (The old joke that a woman can stand in front of full closet and say that she has nothing to wear. In truth, she may be saying that she doesn’t see what to wear that reflects what she is feeling.) That makes more sense to me now. When feeling especially submissive, i have a strong desire to wear my femme clothes.   

When we got into bed last night, MD told me to turn over and face the wall. She got out one of Her large vibrating dildos and began to play with Herself while i could only listen. In a few minutes, She came hard and we both fell asleep. My sexual activity now – watch and listen.

05/31/2016:Last night MD ordered me to lick Her p*ssy and then turned over and told me to lick Her ass. It wasn’t because She wanted to give me a treat, She just wanted to use for Her pleasure. Normally MD doesn’t allow me to lick Her p*ssy, so last night was an exception.  

 There are three times that i am allowed to play with MD.

1) i have to pay for it. A couple of weeks ago, i asked MD if i could lick Her for $40. Now that doesn’t sound like a lot of money, but it was half my allowance for the month. MD finds it funny that i am willing to spend my money on getting to lick Her. It is incredibly humiliating to have to pay my wife just to get to play with Her and She loves watching me put money in Her “cash jar” before spreading Her legs or turning over so i lick Her ass.

2) When She wants to tease me. MD enjoys seeing how sexually excited She can get me before She turns over and goes to sleep. She may fondle my balls or let me suck on Her breast. She may even let me lick Her to an orgasm, but it is all done to see how “worked up” She can get me. MD then laughs and tells me it is time to go to sleep and i am so excited with lust, that it takes me 30 minutes or more to calm down while She is fast asleep. Not only does She find it amusing, it also makes me incredibly submissive the next couple of days.

3) When MD wants to use me. Like last night, there are times, i am just needed to meet Her sexual needs. As soon as She cums, She turns over and goes to sleep. Whether it is Her vibrator or me, it just depends on the sex toy She wants to use for Her pleasure.

MD doesn’t feel sorry for me that i am no longer allowed to have sex. As She says, “you knew what you were signing up for.” Sexual pleasure is now reserved for Her. My pleasure comes from seeing Her satisfied.

05/29/2016:We were coming home the other night and i said something about having to get something for Her at the club and She said “of course, you are my bitch.” Wow, the words struck an exciting nerve as this is not a term She has used about me very often. MD continues to grow in Her superiority over me (and thus my inferiority towards Her). Though still nice, She is becoming more and more demanding in making me serve Her, in any way She so desires.  

Having traveled down the road of MD being in charge, there is no way either of us would ever go back. In fact, MD said it is only going to be pronounced in the future. The first thing is that when the new house is complete, when i enter the house, MD said She is going to hang my clothes i am to wear for the night in the mudroom. Once i enter the kitchen, i am to be dressed in my femme clothes for the rest of the evening. MD continues to struggle with me coming home from work in my “control” mode and not being in the correct submissive mindset. She wants to make me realize, that even before i come into the house, i will be Her femme/sissy.

MD also told me that She is getting ready to want to see me with another guy. We had met with a couple of guys several months ago, but neither worked out so MD dropped it. She told me a few days ago, that She has been thinking a lot about it and wants to see me have to suck off a guy and then have to bottom for him. To be made to be used sexually for another guy is something hard to imagine, but MD loves the thought of me being with another guy. Just another way She controls and drives me deeper into submission. 

And lastly, MD just placed an order for a remote controlled vibrating butt plug She saw online. Though we have a couple of butt plugs already, this one can be controlled by Her iPhone. Where in the past, i had to be sitting next to Her, She can now control it while i am at work, or in town, even if She is not there. She told me that She loved the idea of being at the swingers club and going back to play with a couple and leaving me out in the main room with the plug being turned on while She is having sex in the back. 

MD’s bitch! i am Hers to use, however She so chooses. i am Her servant, Her sissy, Her toy and Her bitch. i am so lucky! 

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