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8/30/15:Yesterday morning i had a great glimpse of my future life. MD and i were cuddling in bed and i had my leg between Hers, with my arm across Her stomach. She began to rock Her hips back and forth and then grabbed my hand and put it against Her breast telling me, “My breasts are needy little bitches, they need some attention.” Let’s just say She didn’t have to ask me twice. i began massaging MD’s breasts and playing with Her nipples. i told Her that i was hoping to make Her p*ssy jealous so she too wanted some attention. MD said, that Her p*ssy was “the neediest bitch of all.” A few minutes later MD grabbed Her vibrator, and told me She wanted to use my finger. She had me put my middle finger in Her p*ssy and my ring finger against Her tight little asshole and held Her breast for me to begin sucking. She turned on Her vibrator and begin to play with Herself. It wasn’t too long that i could tell that Her breath was beginning to get fast and shallow which means She was getting close. i sucked a little harder and went a little faster with my finger and MD exploded with a very nice sounding orgasm. i stopped stimulating Her, and waited for Her to come down a bit before i removed my finger and then took my lips from Her breasts. All She said was “good boy”. Once MD came down from Her orgasmic high, She told me She wanted some coffee. i got out of bed and made Her a cup of coffee and then laid down beside Her feet. i began to rub on them and She said, “you can go get the massage lotion and oil and do my feet while I drink my coffee.” i quickly obliged and got the oil and massage lotion i use on Her feet and She laid there drinking Her coffee and responding to emails, (which i discovered were emails/texts to several of Her lovers). Once i was through massaging Her feet, MD had me go fix Her breakfast and then we began our day.
The difference now from a couple of years ago is that MD has no expectations of sexually pleasing me. She didn’t touch me, She didn’t acknowledge me, i am Her play toy and is only needed for Her sexual pleasure. Friday night, while we were swimming, (Her naked, me in my bikini bottoms), MD told me that She saw my erections as being disrespectful of our relationship and that is why She is looking forward to having me in my chastity cage. So today was Her way of showing, that from now on, i will be only used to pleasure Her, and She has no interest in showing me any attention while i do so. i am Her eunuch, serving Her without any need or expectation of any sexual attention.
It is amazing to realize that all i am now is only a sexual toy for Her to use. She has several lovers that She will use to be Her sexual partners, i am only a finger and mouth when She needs. Speaking of, MD. She has play dates on Monday with “D” and “M” on Tuesday. There is a slight chance that “Jody” will come over today but it will depend on whether or not his daughter will be coming over. Today, MD told me my job is to be Her “SoS”; Secretary of Sex. i am now responsible to keep up with Her calendar of dates and any other information about them that She needs.
My life is pretty clear going forward. i am MD’s sexual toy when She desires. i no longer have sexual needs or expectations. She loves that i am sexually frustrated and will do whatever possible to exploit it, but has no concern that i have a desire for any release. She finds my cums an incredible inconvenience and as She noted, it takes at least two weeks every time i cum to get me back in the right “sub place” and She shouldn’t have to deal with that. She is the Masteress, why should She be inconvenienced for a couple of weeks for 10 seconds of pleasure for me? The answer is obviously She shouldn’t, so the natural conclusion is that i will pleasure Her and She will only T&D me for at least the next 10 years.
What i find incredible is that there are many guys who would love to be in my shoes. i realize that, and know that i am the luckiest SOB in the world. Though Her body is reserved sexually for other guys, i am the one who gets to hold Her when we get in bed at the end of the day!
Our Relationship: (Repeating on Each Blog)
As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 16 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “slave” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.