08/08/2015:

MD has a new lover. “M” lives about 45 miles away and is a couple years younger than MD. He contacted Her off of one of the online sites and they have texted and talked several times the past few weeks. MD felt so comfortable with him, that She waived Her “first date” rule with him. MD took off Monday afternoon from work and met him at a hotel about halfway between them. He met Her in the lobby of the hotel and then they went up to his room. MD didn’t tell me much about their play time, but did mention that he didn’t last as long as he said he was capable. (Very few do with MD!)   

“M” also came over to our house yesterday for a repeat performance. i had taken the day off from work to do a few projects, one of which was to take the dog to the vet. While i was gone, “M” came over to see MD. i knew he was coming over, as MD had me get out the box of condoms he left with Her on Monday and to make sure the bedroom was ready. (Including having the flowers beside the bed that he had bought Her on Monday.) He was still in the house when i got back from the vet, so i kenneled our dog and waited in our travel trailer, as i didn’t want to disturb them by going into the house. MD texted me when he left and i took MD Her drink from Starbucks that She had told me to bring back. When i walked in, MD told me i had some clean up in the bedroom, not just the normal condom wrappers and towels, but it seemed that while riding on top of “M”, MD knocked something off the wall. (MD met me at the door wearing her silky black robe and the negligee She wore for “M” and one of Her boobs was still hanging out of the negligee!) Damn She looked sexy!!

  It is amazing to know that “M” has already had more sex with MD than i have this year and he sounds like he is going to be one of MD’s regulars, similar to “D”. His work schedule is a bit flexible and he doesn’t mind driving to Her. MD also feels very comfortable with him. The only problem She has with him is that he wants to text her all the time. MD asked, why can’t guys understand that She just wants sex and She isn’t looking for a lot of ongoing communication. i tried to explain that these guys are so excited to meet someone like Her, that they want to enjoy that high. (He sent Her six texts within an hour after leaving.)

 MD also got rid of one lover this past week. She found out that he lied to Her and MD told him “bye”. He had been pestering about getting together again anyway, so MD was not very disappointed to set him free. MD has three other guys that She has already had a first date with and will probably see again. Two of them live out of town, so they have to work on scheduling when they can meet and the other is a builder who is in the middle of a big project, so his time is limited too. MD is also in the middle of a major project at work, so getting schedules aligned is one of the more difficult aspects of Her dating life.  

 MD is also supposed to see “J” on Sunday, so if that happens MD will have had four dates this week with three different lovers. (She saw “D” on Tuesday.) It is amazing to see how comfortable MD is right now with all the guys (and a couple of women) She is either talking to, or seeing. “M” noticed that the flowers he bought were beside the bed and asked if it bothered me that they were there. MD said no, and though She didn’t really understand why i was so comfortable with Her having lovers, it was all good. i don’t know if i can explain why i love that MD has other lovers. Part of it is knowing that She needs sex and these guys play a role that i can’t. But it also the fact, that She is in complete control. She doesn’t ask me if She can play with someone, She chooses who and when She wants to play and i have no say in it. There is a power in Her sex life that is almost impossible to describe. When Her sex life is active, MD’s batteries are charged. She has more energy and feels better. i love the confidence She has when She knows that guys are chasing after and wanting to be with Her.

 After “M” left and i cleaned up the room, i asked MD permission to take a short nap. It was amazing to crawl into the same bed that less than an hour ago, MD had another lover. As i laid there starting to fall asleep, i was thinking how lucky i was to have such an amazingly hot and sexy wife and MD!

 Our Relationship: (Repeating on Each Blog)

As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 16 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “slave” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.  

07/23/2015:

i stood in the hotel bathroom yesterday morning in a white bra, white string panties, freshly shaved legs and underarms, and pink toenails. i was getting dressed to go to an offsite meeting and thought OMG, what a little sissy MD has created. i had to go on a business trip the last couple of days and was at a nice hotel in St. Louis. i left on Tuesday afternoon and came back late Wednesday night, so though not a long trip, it was still too long to be away from MD. i use to travel a lot of work, but thankfully, that has slowed down quite a bit the last few years because i just hated being away from MD. There are a lot of men (and women) who love to travel for business as it gets them out of the house. That is definitely not me!! i enjoy my time in Her presence. 

i do have to admit, traveling was different this time. Since i didn’t have to go into the office on Tuesday, i wore shorts and a golf shirt to the airport. No one seemed to notice (or at least comment) on my bra straps possibly showing, and i was chosen to go through the metal director with no issues. On the flight home though, i had to take off my suit jacket going through security and this time, i was chosen to go through the body scanner. When i stepped out, the guy asked me if i had anything in my shirt pocket. i told him no, and said he would need to pat down my chest and then my back, which he did and then passed me through. So, i guess sports bras show up on a body scanner. i wonder how many times a guy gets stopped for that at airport security? i wonder what would happen if i was wearing my chastity cage what would happen? The reality is, the more MD requires of me, the less i am about worried about being “caught”. i still want to be careful around family and work situations, but if someone in town sees a bra strap or me in femme clothes, or even if someone finds out that we live in a WLM and MD is in total control or cuckolds me, that is really not a big deal anymore.  

 i have a younger sister and growing up i think one of the phrases she used more often than any other was “You’re not the boss of me”. For some reason that phrase was in my head lying in bed at the hotel. i thought, i do have a boss of me, someone i always have to obey and it is an amazing feeling. i love knowing i am under the control of MD. Even while i was away, She would text me what i was allowed to do and places i could go. For example, She allowed me one beer while at the hotel and one on the way home. Just knowing that even another state, She still had complete control of me and what i was doing. The part that i hated, besides not being in Her presence, was that i was unable to serve Her and She was having to do some things on Her own. (There were a lot of things She did leave me to do when i got home, including washing the dishes and putting the toilet paper on the holder.) But i love knowing that the best place in my life is with MD.

 Our Relationship: (Repeating on Each Blog)

As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 16 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “slave” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.  

MD  

07/21/2015:

We agree that each year on our marriage anniversary to allow sh to have intercourse with MD. In addition to this yearly celebration, MD may allow sh, at her discretion, to be allowed to have additional intercourse with MD for $250.00.  

In our WLM contract that we signed earlier this year, MD put in a “bonus clause”, saying that if i was to save up $250.00, then She would consider having sex with me. Well over the past 4.5 months, i have almost been able to save that amount of money up. i have cut out coffee at work, as well as cut back on several other expense that i really didn’t need and diligently saved my money. Out of the $20 weekly allowance MD gives me, i try to buy flowers for Her every other week, as well as take my dress shirts to the laundry, but other than that, my “expenses” have been greatly reduced. i have averaged saving a little over $12 per week and putting whatever was left out of my allowance at the end of the week in my panty drawer. Yesterday, i told MD that by next weekend, (MD gives me my allowance on Sundays), i should have that amount of money saved up and asked Her if She would consider allowing me to have sex with Her. MD said She would consider it.
 

After October, the clause will be removed from the contract, since i will be locked up permanently in a chastity cage, and i thought that this was my chance to get to have sex with MD one additional time. It is a bit humiliating to have to pay your wife to have sex with you, but humiliating or not, i think it will be worth it. i very seriously doubt that i will be able to make MD cum, unlike Her lovers, but just the opportunity to be inside Her again (it has been since October of 2014) will be amazing. i have said it before that MD is a sexual goddess and She really is an amazing lover.  

 While typing this blog, i thought of the old commercial “What would you do for a Klondike bar?” In my case, it is “What would you do for sex with MD?” and $250 seems like a no brainer!

 Our Relationship: (Repeating on Each Blog)

As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 16 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “slave” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.  

MD

7/17/15:There is the concept in the BDSM world that when two people are playing they “exchange power”. One person gives another person power over them and they submit to them. Usually this happens during a “scene” and then they go back to normal. In actuality, this is only true to a point. Most of the time there is a “safe word” by the sub, so the person hasn’t really taken any power, maybe they have “borrowed” it from them, but the one who is submitting, can take it back at any point. In our WLM though, there is a definite transfer of power that is taking place from me to MD, which is permanent. The power that MD now has over me is simply incredible. It is hard to describe the difference that has taken place in just the last few months. (For example just this past month, MD ordered me three new bras to wear full time and bought a cuckold sticker for my car and a “Hot Wife” sticker for Her car!) We were discussing last weekend of her growing power and control over me and i asked Her, on a percentage scale where did She feel She was, in having complete power over me? Her response was 90%. i had mentally made a note to myself before i asked the question and had the number at 91% in my mind, so we both basically see it the same way. The obvious question is what is keeping Her from having 100%? First, i think 100% is a great goal to shoot for, but that is almost impossible to get, just by the nature of who we are as people. But the other reason is that MD has been teaching me that our WLM is a journey and some things have to be experienced before the lesson can be learned. i remember several months ago asking for Her to tell me what else i needed to learn about being a good sh, and She said that i wasn’t ready. i can look back and see how wise Her words were. Sometimes the best lessons are not one which you are told something, but ones you live through. That has happened to me many times this past year and a half. The fact is that there are several more “lessons” that MD has told me that i have yet to learn, but will be experiencing in the next three months. i think each of these coming experiences will drive me closer to that 100% control by Her.

 1) MD is going to tattoo me. This was supposed to take place a few months ago, but due to some timing issues and some doctor visits, this had to be postponed. Though i have received a couple of tattoos in the past, (and one PA piercing), this will be different. MD is tattooing me. Not that She is doing the actual tattoo, but She has chosen the design, found the artist, determined where the tattoo will be placed, what size it will be, what color(s) and even when it will be done, without one bit of input from me. In fact other than the place where i am getting the tattoo, i have no other knowledge of what She has planned or how it will look. In a way, it is Her way of “branding” me; She is forever marking me as Hers. By submitting my body to Her in this manner (without knowing what it will be until it is done), represents my total commitment to Her ownership of me.  

2) i will be taken by another man. MD has a desire to see me submit to and have another man f*ck my ass. She has already met with two guys who are interested in this scenario and i have no doubt it is just a matter of days/weeks that this will take place. This is not something i had ever imagined would happen to me. The first time that i watched MD play with another guy, is an image in my mind i will never forget. To know that MD will forever have an image of another man having his way with me is an image i know She will always have too, and i find that very humiliating. At the same time, i will have an image of MD watching me get taken that i will have forever as well. The power of those images will be something that will drive me more under Her power and control.

3) My last intercourse experience. MD has said, that my last chance to have sexual intercourse will be in October. It is hard to imagine that this day is quickly approaching. i have been MD’s lover for over 18 years and to know that after our next anniversary, i will never be again, is almost impossible to believe. MD is an incredible lover but from that point forward, the only sex She will be having is with other guys, as She will be finished with me in that regard. My only sexual experiences from then on will be the times She chooses to allow me to serve Her orally, or when i am with another guy. To have that kind of control over me and to know that is what She desires is incredible.  

4) Put in permanent chastity. The chastity device has been ordered and i assume will be here in a couple of weeks. Outside of some break in or adjustment time, for the most part i will be in a chastity cage on a full time basis. After our anniversary it will pretty much be permanent. MD will now have complete control of my cock. i will no longer be able to touch it, become erect, and of course no more orgasms, or at least like i am used to. (Some guys say that when locked up and through anal stimulation they have something of an orgasm and some cum leaks out, but not the powerful spasms that they used to have – much more internal than external.) Though i have been in chastity before, but it was with the knowledge there was a “light at the end of the tunnel”. That will no longer be the case. MD will not be releasing me to enjoy any freedom. Outside of doctor visits and some travel, i will always be kept in a locked down state.

5) Knowledge of MD’s sexual experiences. MD has made it very clear to me that Her sex life is now no longer any of my business. There may be times that She meets with a lover and does not tell me about it, or if She does, it may be after the fact. We even discussed that She has the right to go away for a weekend with one of Her lovers if She ever so chooses. Though we are married, Her body is no longer mine, but my body is completely Hers.

 All of these events are milestones in my journey of total submission to MD. As each of these are experienced, more and more power is transferred to MD. Losing power to MD though is not something i dread, in fact i relish it. Control is always something i have driven by; to be in control of my life and any given situation i was experiencing. To go from the guy who was in control, to the one who is now controlled, has been an incredible journey so far, but one i wouldn’t trade for anything in this world.

  
 Our Relationship: (Repeating on Each Blog)

As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 16 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “slave” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.  

 7/12/15:Yesterday was incredible. It started out with MD and i getting up early and going to Denny’s for breakfast. i love starting out the day over breakfast, just talking and enjoying time together (MD even allowed me to order for myself yesterday!) After breakfast we ran to the store for a couple of items and then hit Starbucks before heading back home. When we got home, i was changing into some work clothes and so i decided to change from the “normal” bra i wore that morning to one of my “sports” bras. As i stood there in my panties and the bra it hit me that this is what i now wear. Whether i am out in public, at work or at home, i wear panties and a bra. This is not just something i do for fun or occasionally as a thrill, but this is my new normal and will be so for the rest of my life.  

 After finishing getting dressed i told MD my “wow moment”. She asked if i knew why She now requires me to wear a bra every day? MD explained that as a woman with large breasts, She is always aware when She has a bra on, whether it was the tight band or the compression She felt, but there is no “wondering” about it. MD told me that She wanted me to always be aware that i have one on too and therefore i am a sissy and i am Hers. She said, panties are becoming more unisex, but there is no mistaking when you wear a bra who and what you are.  

 We went on to discuss other elements of our WLM. MD asked if i had any regrets on the decision i made to be Hers. i told Her, though it is difficult to deal with the fact that after October, i will never be allowed to have sex with Her, or even get hard again and very probably not ever cum (at least how a guy normally cums) again, i absolutely had no regrets and i love being Her sh. i asked Her if She thought She would ever change Her mind about wanting to be in total control. i told Her that you read where a lot of wives may begin chastity or Domming their husbands, or even cuckolding them and then get “bored” with it and want go back to the way things used to be. MD said She never sees that as an option, that this is what She wanted and is loving getting to finally be “Her”. She loves being in charge of me, and in control of the money and responsible for all the decisions. i told Her that i noticed recently that She no longer says “our money”, when She talks about savings or budgets, She now refers to it as “Her money”. In regards to money or purchases, MD may ask me if i know of things we need around the house, especially my cleaning supplies, but often times, we will have packages delivered that i had no idea that She bought it.

 MD has no need to get my thoughts or opinions on what She does. We have a house we have been leasing out while the market recovered. We learned recently that our tenants were moving out in a few months after living there almost three years. She contacted our property manager and got some ideas of what our house might now bring on the open market. Though MD asked me what my thoughts were on selling the house, She made the decision to list it and She will make the decision on whether any offers we get are acceptable. There is a good chance, that i might not even know when or how much the house sells for, except for needing to sign at the closing, (and since She has a POA, i may not even need to be at closing) since it really isn’t any of my business.  

 Last evening, after dinner, we got into the pool. i wore my pink bikini and MD wore only a men’s white shirt. MD knew that once She got in, that it was basically going to be see through and loved that i kept staring at Her. She finally laughed and unbuttoned the shirt so both of Her breasts just bobbed in the water. She noticed i was getting hard looking at Her, so MD pulled down my bikini bottoms and begin to stroke me to get me “fully engaged”. After i was hard, She climbed on top of me where my dick was right at the edge of Her pussy. She just bobbed up a down and grinded a bit on me for a while, but not letting me get inside Her, just teasing the hell out of me. She asked me how did it feel to know that Her body didn’t belong to me any longer, but that it was only for Her lovers? She leaned back against the edge of the pool so i was staring directly at pussy when i had to answer. i told Her it was incredible to see Her beautiful pussy and know how tight, and amazing it feels to be inside Her, and realize that it is no longer something i get to enjoy. She smiled and said “good”, and then told me that Her lovers felt the same way about Her body that i used to feel. Both “D” and “J” have commented on how tight and amazing She feels on several occasions. i reminded Her that there was a possibility She could have three or four different lovers this next week. She has “D” coming over Monday, and also supposed to meet two new guys, one on Tuesday and one Wednesday, and a guy She met on a “first date” a couple of weeks ago, has asked if he can see Her this coming weekend. She grinned and said, “I know”.  

 We finished the night in bed, Her nude and watching a cooking show and me in my pink gown, reviewing some of the guys who contacted Her yesterday off of one the internet sites. MD usually has me go through and edit out all the ones who contact Her that She would not be interested in, and then She reviews the remaining “possibles”. (i am also responsible for being Her “secretary”, keeping up with Her dates, at least the one She tells me about. MD has said, there may be times that “D” comes over while i am at work and She may not tell me, since again, it really isn’t any of my business any longer who or when She plays with someone.) i thought as i laid there, how lucky i am; that i have more than i could ever dreamed of and how far i have come in just over a year and a half. i can’t wait for the journey to continue as i submit to and follow MD’s leadership.

 PS…MD said after my last blog, i was allowed to post one pic of Her.

 Our Relationship: (Repeating on Each Blog)

As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 16 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “slave” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.  

7/02/15:Another new term that i came across this week was “candualism”. Candualism can be defined as the enjoyment a man receives when his wife or girlfriend is displayed to others. The term can also be applied to the posting of photos or her wearing revealing clothing. i have to admit, i love when MD is displayed to others. Whether it is Her sending a revealing picture of Herself to a possible lover, or when She flashes someone, or even just Her wearing a low cut blouse and watching the guys stare, i enjoy it.   MD has an incredible, curvy, sexy body and depending on what She is wearing, She can literally “stop traffic” (or at least make them swerve off the road!). MD currently has a picture of Her in a low cut dress on an Internet site, and even without Her face being shown, She receives 10-15 emails a day just off that one pic. One my favorite stories, was when i was a member of a Yahoo group for subs. MD allowed me to post a picture of Her as my Domme. Again, it was without her face showing, basically just a pic of Her boobs in a green nighty. Several months later i stumbled across another Yahoo group, for which i wasn’t even a member, and the home page pic for the group was that same pic of MD. Someone had seen Her pic and used it for their group. Even MD got a kick out of that.  

 Though MD is very careful about where She goes when She is dressed provocatively, sometimes just wearing a grey tight t-shirt and yoga pants, will have guys stop and stare! It is fun when we are at a store and see guys basically following Her from one isle to another. While some guys might get angry at this, i love it (thus candualism). When MD is purposely “dressed to thrill” the reaction is even better. When we go to a bar or other “adult” environments, MD has no trouble wearing something that “shows the girls off”. And depending on where we are, MD has even been known to pull the girls out!

 One evening we were driving between Dallas and Ft. Worth and a guy passes us. He sees MD in the passenger seat and slows back down to stare. MD sees him staring and grins at him. He started mouthing “wow” and “you are beautiful”. This goes on for about a mile with MD, flirting with the guy driving next to us. And with a little encouragement from me, MD reaches in Her dress and pulls out the girls and flashes him. i thought he was going to pass out or wreck! Well, let’s just say he “returned the favor” and flashed Her back. Unfortunately, that was when our exit came up and we never saw him again, but i am sure he will always remember that evening.

 MD and i used to be members of an adult off-premises club where we would go and dance, and MD would usually flirt with the women there, even more than the men. (There are several stories from those days!) This past month we actually joined an “on-premises” club where they have rooms at the club where couples can play. Some of these rooms are more private than others. One of my biggest fantasies is for MD to be playing with another guy in one of the public rooms and have a large group of people watch them play. MD is an incredible lover and She can definitely put on a hell of a show!

 i am very lucky that MD is so beautiful, but even luckier that She allows Herself the freedom to be a flirt at times. Though i often accuse Her of having a “broken mirror”, because when She looks in the mirror or at a pic of Her, all She says She sees are flaws. All I see is my beautiful and incredibly sexy Masteress! And fortunately that is what others get to see and enjoy as well!

 (Maybe one day MD will allow me to post a pic of Her on this blog to prove my point!!!)

 Our Relationship: (Repeating on Each Blog)

As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 16 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “slave” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.