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A Long Weekend: 9/2/14: It was an incredible long weekend with MD. We saw family, ate out, went to a new dive bar and hung around the house. Though i didn’t get near enough projects done around the house, it was a much needed restful weekend. i don’t mean restful in the realm of sleep though. For the last three weeks i have been averaging just over 4.5 hours of sleep each night. i go to bed at my normal bedtime 9:30 or 10:00, but am waking up between 2:00 and 4:00 am; Saturday night it was 1:30. i was able to take an hour nap Sunday and Monday, but for the most part, i feel awake and refreshed, just not getting as much sleep as usual.
MD moved my maintenance spanking to last night. She gave me 39 swats and then took me to bed and played with my dick. She first made me lick Her to three orgasms and then played with me for about 30 minutes. MD got me hard and took turns jacking me to the edge of cumming and then spanking my erect dick. It got to the point i was begging Her to let me cum. She laughed and said no and that it wasn’t Her problem anymore that i wanted to cum.
We had a discussion yesterday afternoon (in between MD texting with Her new little college student boyfriend) about how She used to feel sorry for me when She denied me for longer periods of time, but that She doesn’t any longer. She wants to make sure that i am physically ok and that we are emotionally good. She wants to make sure i am not becoming resentful and somehow damage our marriage. i can honestly say that i don’t feel resentful at all. i know the decision MD made was best and though it is sometimes difficult (note that i didn’t say hard), i am working to embrace the reality that i will no longer be MD’s lover.
Our anniversary is next month, so i do have that to look forward to, the one time a year i am now allowed to enter Her. Although, there is also apprehension and dread to a degree. We will also celebrate next month our six month anniversary on our new WLM. That also means in only six months after that it will become official and the contract will be finalized and unbreakable. i will be writing more about the contract in the coming days, but today just want to celebrate the great weekend before i head off to work this morning.
Our Relationship: (Repeating on Each Blog)
As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 16 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “slave” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.