6/26/15: MD was getting into bed the other night and so i turned my head as She took off Her robe, (MD sleeps nude and i am not allowed to look at Her body without Her permission), and got under the covers. i told MD that i would love to get to touch Her and She replied, “It is no longer your body to get to play with.” That statement pretty much sums up the state in which i now live. i am MD’s sissy sub husband, and Her body is reserved for men (and the occasional woman). It is strange to know that MD buys lingerie that i will probably never be allowed to see Her wear. She bought a new “personal” shaver to make sure She is nice and trim for Her lovers, but i am not allowed to see Her “handiwork” if you will. MD is my wife and though She loves me with all Her heart and would do anything in the world for me, She can easily deal with the fact that She believes that allowing me to have sex with Her is not good for our relationship and our WLM.  

 When you hear of sexless marriages, it is usually where one or the other partner loses interest in sex. In fact, MD had a first date with a guy this past week, who has been married for over 20 years and his wife decided a few years ago she was no longer interested in sex. They decided that he can play with other women, with certain rules and when he met with MD, he texted his wife saying where he was and who he was with. (BTW, the first date with “Ben” went well and he texted Her right away and asked to meet to play next week.) In our marriage that is not the case. MD loves sex and enjoys exploring new sexual adventures. i too love sex and am still very interested and “somewhat” capable. But sex between MD and i is now difficult in a WLM. How can we be “equals” in bed and then MD be my Superior in everyday life? MD has noticed that when we have sex or even when i just cum, i am less submissive and obedient for several days afterward. i have noticed that when i have sex, though i love it at the moment, i don’t enjoy the feelings i experience in the aftermath.

 Not only is MD’s body no longer mine to play with, right now it is off limits for me even to pleasure Her. MD has only allowed me to lick Her a couple of times this year. MD feels that i get “cocky” when She allows me to please Her orally. i think when MD says cocky She means i get a bit pleased with myself that i can get Her off and provide Her pleasure, and She doesn’t like that. Secondly, MD sees that i almost always get an erection while i lick Her and She doesn’t believe that sissy boys need to get hard. (MD even told me that if there was a pill i could take that would forever keep me from getting hard and there were no other side effects, that She would have me take it.) MD told me last night that when the new chastity cage comes in, She will again consider allowing me to please Her orally. i imagine She believes it is hard to be “cocky” in a pink nightgown, painted toenails and wearing a chastity cage.  

 Our Relationship: (Repeating on Each Blog)

As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 16 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “slave” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.  

Branded. 6/26/15:  Each day that i have to go into the office, before i put on my shirt and get finished dressing to leave, i must wake MD so She can “stamp me”. MD bought a self-inking stamp last year that says “MDsh; (the current date); Owned since 4/7/2014”. i am to change the stamp to today’s date and then MD will usually stamp either, one my wrists or my chest. i then thank Her and then finish getting ready to go to work. It is MD’s way of “branding” me before i go off to work. It is to remind me that i am owned by MD. It is an incredibly submissive feeling to be stamped as property.

 There are other things that MD does to be reminders of my status. i am required to wear a pink, acrylic, 4ga PA ring, so every time i go to the bathroom it is a reminder that i am MD’s little sissy boy. MD also bought me a necklace that has three “dog tags”. One tag says “MD’s sh”; one has “4/7/2014”; and the other has “I love you” on it. When i walk or turn over in bed the “clink” they against each other. It is both an audible and visual reminder that i am Hers. Even having to wear a bra and panties every day is a marker that i am MD’s sissy. i had to go to the dermatologist yesterday for my annual checkup. i had to go into the office first and couldn’t wear my bra and panties to work, since i was going straight from the office to the doctors. i have to admit, it felt weird not wearing them and i changed back as soon as i got home.

 Each of these are ways that MD “brands” me. It reminds me each day that i am Hers to use as She so chooses. Last night after i got home, i mowed the lawn, did two loads of laundry, served dinner, washed the dishes, took out the trash and served MD as She required. MD feels very comfortable in telling me what She wants me to do and it seemed that every time i sat down, MD told me to go do something else. Last night we climbed into bed, i felt incredibly submissive to MD. She had an incredible sense of power about Her. (She often does after being with another guy or being on a “first date” which She had yesterday.) i thought of the ways MD marks me and how i have become totally Hers.

 Our Relationship: (Repeating on Each Blog)

As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 16 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “slave” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.  

Hot and Sweaty. 6/25/15:  One of MD’s lovers (“J”) is supposed to come over this evening after work. Due to various circumstances, he hasn’t been able to come over in a while and they are both anxious to “catch up”. While he is here entertaining MD, i will be mowing and edging part of our property. So while i will be hot and sweaty working outside, he will be getting hot and sweaty inside with MD. The look of satisfaction from MD though, once he is gone, will be worth it. MD loves a good f*cking and “J” is certainly able to provide that to Her. He is Her sex stud, i am Her sissy slave.

 Our Relationship: (Repeating on Each Blog)

As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 16 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “slave” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.  

Caught Dressed. 6/21/15:  Recently, i moved a lot of my “boy clothes” to the guest bedroom closet. i had been keeping my “fem clothes” in a couple of dresser drawers in there and i thought i would move some of my casual clothes to the guest bedroom so i could hang some of my dresses, skirts and tops up. It was MD who suggested i move also my work clothes in there and have my closet totally “sissy”. It makes sense, these aren’t my “play” clothes anymore; these are the clothes that i put on as soon as i come home. It is what i often wear in public, though most people can’t tell the difference between women’s shorts and men’s or even the difference in a “golf shirt” for men or women.

 Last weekend, i went to pick up some barbeque at a local restaurant. i went at a time, i thought they shouldn’t be busy. i wore a grey women’s t-shirt, black women’s workout shorts, a grey sports bra and pink/black flip flops (with my pink toenail polish showing). i walked in and placed my order and no one behind the counter seemed to notice, except i did notice that i get sort of a strange look from a woman, who seemed to be the manager and was helping getting some orders ready. i didn’t think too much about it until on my way home i realized that i was still wearing my “boobies”. i will often wear fake boobs when in my bra at home and i forgot to take them out before i left. The falsies are not real big and with the larger t-shirt, i would guess that most people would not even notice, but i think she may have.

 It was amazing this week to put my panties and bra on and go into the office or to my offsite meetings. It is always in the back of my mind, wondering if someone can tell that under this suit, is a little sissy boy in lingerie?

 On Thursday and Friday, MD and i went out of town for some business meetings i had to attend. On Friday night, we decided to stay over and went to an on premise swingers club there in the town. MD looked amazingly hot, wearing a dress where “the girls” were prominently displayed and i wore the suit i had worn earlier that day, minus the tie. It was pretty chilly in the club and i gave Her my coat jacket, which left me just in my shirt so i am sure that anyone behind me could have noticed my bra straps under my pink dress shirt.

 Yesterday, as i was packing us up to head home, i was just wearing black lacy panties and a black bra. MD saw me and said, “I love the way my little servant is dressed.” Dressing “fem” is not just something i am want to do, but is what MD requires and that is a whole new level of submissiveness, to know that is how She now sees me.  

 Our Relationship: (Repeating on Each Blog)

As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 16 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “slave” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.  

Big Black Book. 6/17/15:  Are you old enough to remember people carrying little black books to keep telephone numbers and notes on dates? MD now has a “Big Black Book”. MD has had so many guys contact her the past couple of weeks, She was having trouble keeping up with the ones She was replying to and who She was interested in talking. She found a large black notebook and now has a page for each guy. She keeps his name, where he contacted Her from and identifying characteristics. It is fun to watch Her flip through the book trying to find the right guy when one texts or emails Her.

 MD met with “Raj” on Saturday for a first date and will probably see him again. She was supposed to me “B” last week, but their first meeting She had to cancel and then the second he couldn’t make, so maybe the third time is the charm. She tentatively has a date in a couple of weeks from a guy from Switzerland. He is an American who is living oversees but comes to Dallas several times a year. He will be here for a several days at the end of the month. The guys She is talking to ages range from 24 to 55. The 24 year old is former college football player but wants to try being submissive and the 55 year old is married but Wife allows him to play since She no longer wants sex.

 i tell MD that it takes about 20 guys who contact Her to find one who is worth talking to and out of those, it takes about 10 guys who She is talking to, to find one worth meeting, and even then that is not certain. MD was supposed to meet another guy on Saturday before She met “Raj” and he cancelled on Her as we were driving to meet him. Often the guys are big talkers but then back off when it actually comes to meeting. And out of the guys She meets, She may play with one out of three. So as you see it is the “law of large numbers.”  

 We are supposed to go out of town Thursday and Friday and there are a couple of guys She is talking to where we are going, so MD may have a quick date on Thursday night. Often these fall through, but MD did meet one guy that way and he was someone She really enjoyed, so you can never tell. It is exciting to watch guys flirt with MD, because She is the pro at it. i love the look in Her eyes when She is talking to another guy. Since the only sex MD gets is now with other guys, She has really flipped a switch on how active She is in talking with other guys and how much control She maintains in this area. Her sex life is in high gear and mine is soon to be locked in storage.

 Our Relationship: (Repeating on Each Blog)

As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 16 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “slave” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.  

MD’s sissy sub Rules 6/13/15: i wanted to post a set of MD’s rules for me. i didn’t put down the obvious overall rules; always obey MD, don’t argue with MD, etc. These were meant to be specific rules that MD has provided to me as Her sissy sub:

 sissy sub must wear panties and a bra every day, even to work.

sissy sub must only wear sissy clothes around the house, except when working in the yard.

sissy sub’s body must be kept shaved clean.

sissy sub should not get an erection without MD’s permission.

sissy sub must never cum without MD’s permission.

sissy sub when allowed to cum, sh must drink or lick it all up.

sissy sub’s bedtime during the week is 9:00 and 10:00 on weekends, unless MD chooses to extend.

sissy sub must wear a diaper if he* goes anywhere besides work by himself.

sissy sub must get permission to go anywhere.

sissy sub must text MD upon arrival and departure of any place he* goes except work.

sissy sub must ask MD’s permission for anything to eat or drink.

sissy sub is not allowed to look at any pictures of naked women.

sissy sub must not leave the shopping cart area without MD’s permission when shopping together.

sissy sub must keep all receipts of anything he* purchases.

sissy sub must always open and close the car door for MD.

sissy sub must always ask permission from MD to “go potty” at home, work or out in public.

sissy sub must avert his* eyes if MD is naked or dressing unless given specific permission to see MD’s body.

sissy sub must never touch MD in an intimate place or way without Her permission.

sissy sub may only have a certain number of alcoholic drinks (wine/beer/liquor) per week to be decided by MD.  

sissy sub must keep his* toenails painted pink, unless permission is given by MD to remove.

sissy sub must always sit when peeing at home.

sissy sub is responsible for all house cleaning activities.

sissy sub is not allowed to use real plates for meals, but is only allowed to eat off of paper plates.

sissy sub may not ask for sexual relations with MD and when in chastity, may not ask for release.

 * Not sure whether to use the masculine “he” or “his” pronoun or the feminine “she” or “hers” – neither sounds correct for me anymore.

 The rules have evolved over time and MD adds new ones as we go along. i do love knowing i have boundaries, even if it is hard knowing that i used to be a grown man making my own decisions and now i am but a sissy boy.  

 Our Relationship: (Repeating on Each Blog)

As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 16 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “slave” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.  

Chastity Life  6/12/15: A couple of days ago MD allowed me to cum. It had been almost two months since the last time i had cum. She took a almost empty water bottle and had me jack off into it. i then had to drink everything in the bottle. Though getting to cum was incredible, i have noticed that the last few days i have been “off my game”. i have been lazier and not near as attentive to MD as i was the two months before. The truth is i like being “horny” more than i like the feelings the next few days after cumming. Though the 15-20 seconds of release are incredible, the aftermath i don’t like.

i guess that is why i am beginning to look forward to enforced chastity, knowing that my state of perpetual desire for MD will be constant. The other reason is the physical aspect. Since MD doesn’t want me to get hard, i sometimes have to purposely stop conversations or thoughts of MD, because it is getting me aroused. With the chastity device, i won’t be faced with that issue.

Speaking of the chastity device, i believe MD has chosen the one She wants. i reviewed and suggested two models to Her that i thought would work well for long-term wear and She was going to choose the one She liked best. i don’t know when or if She ordered it and i don’t know which model She chose. It will be a surprise to me when it gets here. The reason She is ordering it early is that these are custom made and it takes 6-8 weeks to arrive. (The guy who does it is less than an hour drive from us.) Then you can have a try on period to see if you want any modifications and can ship it back to them for “resizing” before long-term application. MD is ordering the cage with the security screw, as She is not planning on taking it off except for travel and some doctor visits. She also bought a safe and with a key pad entry, and had me permanently mount it so She can keep the signed Contract, the POA over me and my security key, as well as any other “evidence”.

Though i recognize that MD is right and that i do better when i am not allowed to cum, i do hate the thought of never having sex with MD again. When i told Her that, She said She might consider letting me out on my 65th birthday to see if i can still do it after over 10 years of “captivity”. I think even more amazing than the thought of being locked up for so long, is the fact that MD loves the fact of me being locked up. i think She is really looking forward to putting the chastity cage on me and tightening the screw in October, knowing that my sexual days are over. She will then finally have Her sissy eunuch.

Our Relationship: (Repeating on Each Blog)

As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 16 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “slave” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.  

sh 2.0. 6/9/15:  As MD instructed, i wore a bra to work yesterday. It was very intense to think as i walked down the hall, that under my suit i was wearing, black lacy panties, woman’s socks and a bra. In addition i had woke up early to shave my legs for the week, have pink toenails and also had a “My Kiddie” (rub on) tattoo over my right breast. So no matter how forceful i was on the call with our subcontractor and the project management team, i was still MD’s little sissy boy who had to get permission to “go potty” when he needed.

When i got home i changed into a new dress that MD bought for me Sunday. We had gone to the store to get MD a pair of new slacks. While She was trying on a couple, i browsed the clearance isle and found a Size 16 (my size) dress for 70% off. MD thought it would be cute on me and said She would buy it. It is such a rush when we go to the store and She picks out and buys women’s clothes for me to wear.

Sunday night MD put on Her bathing suit and wanted to get in the pool, so i put on my new pink bikini. The bikini top does not have any straps over the shoulders, it just ties around the back and this was the first time i had worn it. i was having a little trouble keeping it up and MD said that She never could wear this style of swimsuit. i said “yes, but our problems are different; you were too big for this type of top and i am too small.” She grinned and i swear She glanced down at my dick. When i told Her what She had done, She grinned even bigger and shrugged Her shoulders.  

It is an amazing feeling seeing the changes that are being made in me. i am not necessarily becoming truly feminine but definitely becoming less male. i have used the word emasculated before but it sounds negative, when i don’t mean it that way. As MD said the other night, i am no longer a man. i am MD’s inferior property, who is becoming a sexless sissy and finds incredible joy in serving MD as my owner. In a blog the other day i called the increased confidence and sexiness of MD as “Model 2.0”. i guess this is how i becoming the new me, “sh 2.0”.  

Our Relationship: (Repeating on Each Blog)

As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 16 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “slave” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.  

Newton’s Law: 6/7/15:TNewton’s Third Law of Motion is, “For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction.” No, this isn’t going to be a physics blog, and if it was it would be very short. Actually MD brought it up in a discussion we had yesterday regarding our upcoming October anniversary. i told Her i was both excited and nervous; excited to get to have sex with Her one more time and nervous knowing it was very likely going to be my last time ever to have an orgasm. We were talking about Her decision to make that choice and MD told me that She had no real desire to let me cum again. i asked Her how did it feel knowing She had the power to decide that after October, i would never get to cum again the rest of my life. She admitted She was a bit worried about it at first, wondering how i was going to react, but it gave Her an incredible feeling of power knowing that She could make that decision for me. i told Her for me it was extremely humiliating and a feeling of incredible weakness. That is when She quoted Newton’s Law.

i thought that was a great analogy because it is so true. Where MD finds power, i find weakness; when i am humiliated, She is proud. i think that is why i am so incredibly happy in our marriage right now and MD says She is too. She loves being in complete control and i love being totally under Her control. We are both getting to be what we have dreamed of since we were each six years old. We have talked many times that our first remembrance of what we wanted was as first graders, even though neither of us had any idea about sex. i wanted to be kidnapped by an older girl and kept to be Her slave, and She wanted all the boys (and girls) to obey and follow Her.  

Some people might get the wrong impression of MD. Often when people get the mental picture of a “Domme” they think of some harsh, “fem-Nazi”, with tall boots, hair in a bun, rod in her hand and a stern, demanding look on her face. MD is the exact opposite of that! She is funny, charming, a bit shy and an incredible joy to be around, (but She does love boots though!). She is far more of what you would describe when you think of a “flirt”. She is beautiful, with long, thick, wavy red hair and an incredibly curvaceous body. MD almost always has a smile on Her face and has the most incredible bedroom eyes you would ever want to see. If She ever flirts with you, it is like the spider and the fly, you are Hers. And when you add in the fact that MD has an IQ of over 140 and a photographic memory, you also aren’t going to win many arguments with Her. Now MD can be also be demanding when She gives an order, which is coming very natural for Her now. Yesterday when we got back from the store, MD wanted to sit outside on the porch. As i was unloading the car, She simply said, “You can get my iPad after you put those inside.” Where a few weeks ago, She may have asked me “would you please…”, now it is a simple command which i must carry out. Though MD can be demanding, She is not the stereotypical Domme that is often portrayed.  

So even knowing how MD loves being in control and is my Domme, Her perspective still amazes me. i see things from a sub perspective, where She is seeing things from a 180 degree opposite view. Where i can’t imagine choosing for someone that they will never have sex again, to Her it feels very natural. But then on top of it, to make that decision and put a future date on it is another tortious element, which She enjoys. It would be one type of frustration to be told after sex one night that it was the last time, but to have it placed out there six months in advance, where you can’t help but think about it and wonder what is it going to be like, for me is sometimes mind numbing.  

A couple more examples of the power and perspective of MD. Yesterday, i was wearing a short dress with spaghetti straps at the house. i was having trouble with the dress straps slipping off my shoulders and MD got me a “strap connector” (Not sure what the actual term is for it, but connects the straps together in the back so they don’t slip off.) After dinner, MD wanted to run to the liquor store to get a bottle of gin (Her drink of choice). i went to get undressed and put my “boy clothes” on and was having trouble getting out of my dress, since the straps were now connected and i couldn’t reach the connector. i asked MD for assistance and once She removed it, She said, “Yes, we woman have to help each other.” MD said it so naturally that it didn’t even register to Her what She said. i pointed out that She referred to me as a female again, and She grinned and said, “I guess I did”.  

When we went to bed last night, MD ordered me to lay on my back and begin to play with myself. i began slowly because i wasn’t sure what MD was going to do, but She told me to go faster. It didn’t take very long (it never does) and i was getting very close to cumming. i was getting excited because i really thought MD was going to let me cum again, when She told me to stop. i was right there on the edge and my dick was straining to cum. In my “almost cum” clouded mine, i said to Her, “men should get to cum too”, and She looked and me and grinned and said, “Yes, but you aren’t a man.” With that Newton’s law came into play again, She has all the power and i have none.  

 Our Relationship: (Repeating on Each Blog)

As of 4/7/14, my relationship with my Wife of 16 years, changed from me being naturally submissive to Her to one where we now live fulltime in a “Wife Led Marriage” (WLM) relationship. She is now in total control of all financial, life and daily decisions. She is recognized as the unquestioned authority of our marriage and my life. My role is to be the “sh” to Her “MD”. “sh” is Her way of reminding me that i am Her “sissy”, “submissive”, “servant” and “slave” husband. The MD is “Masteress D (Her name)” or “My Domme”.